I haven't been on here for a couple of years, but something told me to stop by and share with you all how I recovered. It was a very unconventional way, but it's been working. You can go to my profile and read how my story started. I was just as bad as anyone on here. I failed/relapsed so many times on my journey to the point where I almost just gave up and accepted the fact that I'll watch porn for the rest of my life. It made me feel good, so why not, I thought. But the thought of never being intimate with a woman ever again made me even more depressed, and that's when something just clicked in my brain. I first downloaded the program K9 for my computer. I made a random password (for example: giufwrgrg559) and wrote it down.I gave it to a friend who I trusted very much. I told him not to give me the password, no matter how much I begged. I told him to keep it for 60 days, then give it back. I made it 60 days without watching any porn, or even masturbating. But I felt like I didn't improve at all. It was like a 60 day flatline. No morning wood, no desire, nothing. But the will power to stay away from porn was improved. I removed k9 from my computer and was able to avoid porn. I got to about day 85, and I still made no progress physically. I started to feel discouraged because there I was under a week away from 90 days, and I felt like I got nowhere while some guys were fully healed. That's when I decided I would masturbate without porn using light stimulation with no fantasy. I was able to get about 90% hard in less than a minute. This alone showed me that I did in fact make progress. If you asked me to do this before I started my journey, I would have never been able to get 90% hard with light stimulation in under a minute without porn or fantasy. I did wind up having an orgasm, and everything seemed to change. I suddenly started waking up with erections and wanted to have sex with any woman I saw. I got to day 110 before I masturbated again. I was so horny I couldn't help myself. This didn't seem to hurt my progress, but I wanted to get away from masturbating altogether. I wound up making a sex toy out of a sturdy foam pillow so I can simulate real sex the best that I could. I cut a slit in the pillow, put a long latex glove inside and stretched it around the outside of the pillow. Put some lube inside and then went to town on it. I was able to stay hard, but what concerned me was that I still needed to manually stimulate myself in order to get hard. I figured this was because I couldn't just get hard on command without a woman in front of me. I then met a girl who I told my story to. she agreed to help me out. I told her that I didn't want to have sex... I just wanted to make out and go down on her. Win for her, right? So we did this a few times, but I wasn't really getting hard. Maybe like 30-35% at best with a lot of pre-cum. This was pissing me off and one day, I decided that we should just have sex. Disappointingly, I had to get myself hard using my hand, then I put a condom on and we started having sex. I started to kind of lose my erection when I was inside her, and I never came. The second time, I got like 70% hard after stimulating myself first, then came in like 10 seconds. I was so frustrated. I didn't really make much progress after all. I didn't care though, and just kept trying. After that second attempt, I successfully had sex with her about 40-50 times. I did have to get myself hard using my hand, but it was better than nothing. Slowly over time, I started to get hard automatically. I'd notice that just by kissing her and feeling up on her, I'd get about 60% without even touching myself. And once I did, I quickly became about 90% hard. Now, sometimes when I'm really horny or if we haven't had sex in about a week, I can get up to 80-90% hard without touching myself. We've even had sex 3 times in one day. Am I 100%? I still say no. Probably because I went into having sex too early. But this is so much better than where I was before. Also, even after I started having sex, I did relapse a few times. The first time was about 2 months after I had successful sex. It didn't seem to set me back at all. It fact, I had sex 3 times in 2 days right after I watched porn. I also had no desire to go back and watch more. It wasn't until another 4 months passed by that I watched porn again. Even then, no set back. I did have a minor set back about 4 weeks ago though. I watched porn 3 times in a week. That third time, my "session" lasted 35 minutes. My erections while having sex were very sluggish for 2 weeks after that. I needed to abstain from sex for about 10 days before it started feeling normal again. That was a good reality check. I thought I was in the clear and could enjoy porn safely again.... nope. This is a life long commitment, fellas. And I like having sex much more, so I'll stay away from the porn.