Hi Wabi, I have improved a lot in the past one month (only relapsed thrice instead of 15 or 20 times what I normally would have done.) Also I refused to be that self hating forlorn asshole who keeps hosting a pity party. I looked back at my relapse and it happened because I couldn't handle my emotions and binged watched a television show where I was constantly ogling women and this led to an eventual relapse. Television shows has been a major source for my relapses and I have decided to cut them off completely once and for all. I actually watch them only to hide away from tough situations or work. The same reason why I use porn. So they are very closely related. I may have relapsed but I feel a lot happier because something inside of me tells me that I can make it.