I am home alone and getting strong urges. But I know the consequences if I relapse. So instead I I will ask myself why do I want to fap? I am a little under stress about my coming challenges but all I have to do is to stay in the moment and do what needs to be done. Slowly through consistent action, my life will change. I will be better. There is absolutely nothing to be stressed about. It wont help anyways. Also its bothering me, the discomfort of not acting on these urges but I know the this will be a tough journey in the beginning but it will get easier and easier later on. I will regret relapsing. I remember how I had felt last time. How this instant dopamine rush doesn't give lasting satisfaction. I would just need more and more. It's not worth it. I am more than this and I can pull this off. Will practice equanimity.