So I am starting a new journal as the old one was full of failure and whinings which was annoying. I dont know what day of the my reboot I have reached as I use the mobile version of the site where you cant see counters. But I feel like I have a dead penis. It doesn't react anymore. In the morning I got up early and decided to study for a while to start a productive day but I started day dreaming and went to sleep again in a few hours. Was so tempted to relapse but somehow got myself in the present moment and saved the day! Well now hours have passed and I still haven't studied and have wasted time doing things which dont matter. Noa is really helping me to stay in the moment and getting me back whenever I get lost. My life is going to get tough in a few years. Either I will win or either I will perish but I need to start building a good foundation from now. I need to be emotionally resilient. I may have fucked up my life or I may haven't. I dont know. What I know is that I have the power to choose at this moment. I need to focus in the - NOW.