Hey, bro'. You and I are of a similar age and I think I could have written your above post. One reason I slipped after almost 4 years clean was because I felt kind of blah towards everything. It's a struggle, to be sure. What has helped me, in no particular order: journaling here, buying a couple of books, light yard work, and walking. Also, I decided I was going to collate all my digital pictures, which has been more enjoyable than I thought it would be. I have a lot of nature photos that take me back to certain holidays and I've gotten a small buzz from that.