....but the fighter still remains.....

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by Boxer17, Jun 23, 2017.

  1. Gil79

    Gil79 Seize the day

    Just wondering if you're serious about this. It is so hurtful to yourself to call yourself a sinner. Hope your main motivation to overcome this addiction is still love.
     
  2. Boxer17

    Boxer17 Active Member

    Greetings all. Working very long hours. Trying to put away as much money as possible while I can still work. Almost 66 with not much set aside for retirement.
    (Causing me more than a little anxiety):confused:

    Still fighting the fight. Mostly successful. Get knocked around from time to time.
    I know this struggle with self is a headwind I will have to lean into all my life.
    Peace and warm regards to all,
    Boxer
     
  3. Boxer17

    Boxer17 Active Member

    I sometimes wonder if boredom and aimlessness are catalysts for P viewing.
    For example if I am really engaged with something P has little pull on me. When I am bored and start to surf the net I often find myself in trouble. :rolleyes:
    I am finding during this whole virus thing I am watching it and it's impact and P viewing has taken more of a back seat in my mind
    This is probably too simplistic:D
    Any thoughts?
     
  4. nuclpow

    nuclpow Active Member

    Oh yeah. We all have our pathways for porn, being bored and alone is a catalyst for a lot of us. I think it's not simplistic, the Your Brain on Porn website has information, I forget where, on default situations that lead us to porn.

    I haven't read most of your journal. Do you have filtering on your computers? Have you got other things to do when bored such as streaming television or volunteering or a hobby or something? Take care.
     
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  5. Gil79

    Gil79 Seize the day

    Yeah definitely. You need a goal and keep your face in the right direction. If you don't keep moving in a certain direction you'll be food for predators like porn . . .
     
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  6. Boxer17

    Boxer17 Active Member

    Hi Nuclpow. No I don't have any filtering. I would just go around it. :confused: it would be like hiding cookies from myself in the house. I would search till I found them. Likewise I would circumvent the filters.
    Aimlessness is worse for me than boredom. Sometimes nothing is appealing I do have a pretty extensive music collection on mp3 that I enjoy organizing and editing.
    Sometimes watching a movie will help. Or a project around the house.
    Sometimes if I can distract myself for even 10 minutes it will derail the thought pattern that leads down the rabbit hole
    Thanks for reading and responding
    Boxer
     
  7. Boxer17

    Boxer17 Active Member

    Ya got that right;)
     
  8. Boxer17

    Boxer17 Active Member

    I am afraid. I think this old world is approaching the cliff. We are in the throes of this coronamania. The world's teetering economy is being flooded with untold trillions in cash.
    Somethings fixing to happen
    I am having trouble focusing on work. I just stare out the window seemingly in a trance.
    Sorry about this post. I know it's off the theme of this site. I just need to do something
    Boxer
     
  9. nuclpow

    nuclpow Active Member

    I know what you mean but I still want to bug you about it because it's so effective for me (and for others). I haven't seriously tried to circumvent my filters for a long time, but when I do, and I'm in the process of it I keep asking myself "Is this what you really want to do? Do you want to be a pornography addict until you die, because that's what these filters are helping with?" I realise that sooner in my porn-quitting journey filtering worked less than it did now, but it was still better than nothing.

    But maybe you're not at that stage yet.
     
  10. Gil79

    Gil79 Seize the day

    IMO this is exactly the theme of this site. Quitting porn doesn't work if we don't accept our feelings and express ourselves.....
     
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  11. NCBob

    NCBob The 11th commandment: Thou shalt not peek:-)

    Years ago when I was struggling with my sense of self identity, a friend of mine reminded me that God doesn't make junk:)
     
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  12. GreyHeron

    GreyHeron Active Member

    Sometimes, Yes they are and in my experience the catalyst can come from elsewhere. As an example I can be overcome with a sense of entitlement and then I might give myself permission to search the catalogue for a woman to meet that need. It is wrong but that is how I work.

    Peace and every good
     
  13. Boxer17

    Boxer17 Active Member

    Yes.....ive had that happen as well:confused:
     

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