My biggest problem with women has been initiating things and taking them further. I have a tough time coming out of my shell around women I’m attracted to. It’s been like this for me for a long time. You probably can see this just by reading my journal. I think it’s because of how much I tend to overthink things. I have a tough time speaking and acting from the heart and most things I do are thought out and well calculated. When you apply this way of living to women, you tend to always try to say and do the “right” thing so that she will like you and not reject you. I also tend to have high standards with women. Not only physically but personality-wise. I don’t like women that are mean to people or who are self-centered. I like women who know what they want. They also have to have at least some intelligence. I like women who can think. However I also like beautiful women and it’s been difficult finding a woman that is beautiful and who has the personality traits that I want. I don’t know if it’s because beautiful women are more likely to not have that great of personalities or what but so far that’s what I’ve found. There’s only been one girl that I went out on a few dates with that had the looks I wanted and the personality. Unfortunately things didn’t work out with her and she’s since moved. This is why I want to really make an effort this summer to put myself out there and meet someone. I think with more effort and maybe slightly lowering my standards in some areas I can do it.