bright_eyes' Journal

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by bright_eyes, Feb 6, 2013.

  1. fcjl8

    fcjl8 The only path for me

    3 weeks bright eyes!!! Awesome. How are you feeling friend?
     
  2. bright_eyes

    bright_eyes Master of My Own Mind?

    Feeling fine. Getting ready to go out into nature. All good on the No PMO Front.
     
  3. LTE

    LTE Master Of My Domain

    Have fun out there and savor your 21 days of freedom
     
  4. imout

    imout Active Member

    Just had a camping weekend in th ebush. Awesome. Nature always cleans my soul
     
  5. alastair swanwick

    alastair swanwick New Member

    Recognising patters of porn and masturbation are keys to recovery.
     
  6. nofapado

    nofapado Guest

    awesome.
     
  7. a short guy

    a short guy Well-Known Member

    Great to hear.
     
  8. a short guy

    a short guy Well-Known Member

    And getting out into nature, away from routine can help to break patterns :)
     
  9. bright_eyes

    bright_eyes Master of My Own Mind?

  10. nofapado

    nofapado Guest

    "2013/2014 Holiday Massacre" So true. Love it.
     
  11. LTE

    LTE Master Of My Domain

    Agreed.
     
  12. bright_eyes

    bright_eyes Master of My Own Mind?

    This time around, I had "flatline" for 21 days. I love me some flatline.

    It's gone now, though. And my crazy ideas are once again asserting themselves. Dangerous times include just after waking up and while taking a shower.

    I've watched the progression since flatline ended. It started with thoughts of my significant other. Then it moved on to some positive pay-for-play experiences from the past. Today's near miss was fantasy based on an attractive (partnered-up) young lady with whom I have a quite proper uncle/niece-like relationship.

    Continue to touch yourself (even in the shower), and you will go down. I must maintain control with my rational mind. I must maintain my awareness that:

    It's just a fantasy. It's not the real thing...

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ytpWkllFTh0
     
  13. fcjl8

    fcjl8 The only path for me

    You are 25 days STRONG! And you dealt with the fantasy temptation. That is all you can do. Great job.
     
  14. bright_eyes

    bright_eyes Master of My Own Mind?

    Had a respectful, loving, and planned remote session with the significant other. She's as sweet as Tupelo Honey. An ordinary lady she is, but to me, an angel of the first degree.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JEiMQ9w3t3o
     
  15. chicken

    chicken Guest

    Never had Tupelo Honey but now I sure want some ;D
     
  16. imout

    imout Active Member

    Did you count that as a slip?
     
  17. bright_eyes

    bright_eyes Master of My Own Mind?

    I counted it as "jerking off". But I wouldn't call it a slip. For the foreseeable future, it is my version of a sex life with my partner. (Not the version I would choose, but you play the hand you are dealt...)
     
  18. imout

    imout Active Member

    So if its a good thing, why count it into the bad behaviour? Doesnt that make the counter kinda ... you know.... "inacurate"
     
  19. bright_eyes

    bright_eyes Master of My Own Mind?

    I did, in fact, jerk off, regardless of the excuse that it was a planned remote session with my partner. It must be counted. And in order to achieve mastery of my own mind, it must be stopped. Onward!
     
  20. bright_eyes

    bright_eyes Master of My Own Mind?

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