Breaking free - a 120 days hard mode journal

Discussion in 'Ages 30-39' started by BoughtWithBlood, May 5, 2020.

  1. BoughtWithBlood

    BoughtWithBlood Well-Known Member

    I actually laughed really hard when I saw ‘Bob’ when you first wrote the message haha.
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  2. Babylonier

    Babylonier Member

    BWB, what I do is analyse my day or the bourse before the urge is the strongest. When i wake up and go to sleep i try to read. Every time it gets better. Also I keep myself motivated to imagine the price at the finish. Try to enjoy the proces. Imagine how life would be without PMO and FMO. I am trying this and it helps me allot. But it also gifs me some kind of panic because I am not there yet! Everyday when i think about PMO of FMO I try to switch to do something Els. What could I do what I enjoy to do. Als the question that I ask my self is is it going to help me in the long term. If it’s no than I don’t!
    I asked my self lately what did I enjoy before is descoverd P and M? Try it. Write about it! Make it a proces.
    Hope you are doing wel!
    Be strong and god bless!
  3. Rudolf Geyse

    Rudolf Geyse Well-Known Member

    @BoughtWithBlood Wow guy I can see you you are really up against it.

    Well done on coming here to keep posting! That's bold.

    I'm only a couple of weeks into this streak so it's hard to give advice (as we've said before). But my advice is don't give up brother. You are right in the struggle and if you can get through this one it could be the breakthrough you've been waiting for for ages. Being at war with sin proves you are on the process of sanctification. When we give up we've lost. And remember it's His strength and victory when we are all out of strength. Christianity is about trusting less and less in ourselves and more and more in Jesus Christ.

    The best thing I can suggest practically is keep reading, researching and trying new techniques to win. Read through Bible sections and take notes. I found Mark Queppet's stuff quite helpful - even though I don't agree with everything he says!

    Hope you can pick up and build a great streak man. One day at a time! Sometimes one hour at a time!

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  4. BoughtWithBlood

    BoughtWithBlood Well-Known Member

    Well af least I managed to go 2 days. Day 3 now.
  5. BoughtWithBlood

    BoughtWithBlood Well-Known Member

    Ever since I had my Pfizer vaccine I feel a bit better. It seems it has lessened my longcovid symptoms. I do however still feel tired and weak, but that’s not crazy after hardly doing anything for over a year.

    I used to work out 4 x a week and I’m missing it. I just felt too weak to go for it since I would get hit by terrible fatigue if I only did a little too much. Now that the worst longcovid symptoms seem to be fading, I’ll try getting back into working out and I’ll accompany it with some intermittent fasting and a more keto-like diet.

    Really curious if this will help me get back in shape, feel healthy again and reduce porn cravings. It’s worth the try :)
  6. BoughtWithBlood

    BoughtWithBlood Well-Known Member

    Not really focussed on abstaining atm. Just focused on the good. Getting out more. Intermittent fasting, healthy eating, exercise, gardening, social activities.

    So eventhough my P use and lust is still problematic. I’m not letting it keep me from becoming who I want to be.

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