Pick this book up, The Yoke of Bondage by Jimmy Swaggart. I see you going down the same path I went down for years to no avail.. "not really sure what lead to the relapse". It is because like me, (and others) you're in bondage and your will is being overridden. I know, I was there.. This book will explain why you're not getting the victory. As a believer in Jesus Christ it helped me a lot, I'm walking in victory finally. As I learned, it had nothing to do with me and my "methods". We as believers are to trust His victory alone for our victory. [COLOSSIANS 2:14-15] If you trust anything else, the Holy Spirit will not help you... His book will help you to understand Link to the book The Yoke of Bondage, along with two other good ones. His bibles are great too. He has commentary for almost every verse in red. I thought I had a fairly good understanding of the bible before I bought his Expositors' bible. All his books are on sale right now, so good timing.. https://www.shopjsm.org/p-11679-the-yoke-of-bondage.aspx https://www.shopjsm.org/p-10751-the-world-the-flesh-and-the-devil.aspx https://www.shopjsm.org/p-9075-the-message-of-the-cross.aspx https://www.shopjsm.org/c-36-bibles.aspx It's also essential to examine yourself and clean up other areas of sin in your life.. [JAMES 4:8] Half measures will not do it.