I don't have much to add but I think it's pretty common that in the beginning, when you realize that a vice is causing you problems, the first big streak comes easy. For me the first time I quit drinking was right when I had been drinking huge amounts for years, but didn't really see a problem, then I quit cold turkey, didn't drink for six months, and it was almost effortless. Same with porn for the most part. But maybe you jump back in for whatever reason. Maybe you thought since it was easy to quit that time, it always will be. But then you have some relapses, and then a streak of relapses. Now it's been months or years and you continue to get on good streaks, but relapses are also a commonality. They have become a part of you. Failure has become a part of you. You are now......an addict. A victim. A lot of us have been doing this for so long that "porn addict" is how we see ourselves. This enters our mind state every day. And it might be the MOST powerful thing that keeps people in the relapse cycle. A lot of times I swear I almost psyche myself out. "Well, I'm at XX number of days clean, come day XX, that's when I relapse, so I'll probably do it again when I get there". A self fulfilling prophesy, that didn't exist before we identified as "addicts". This victim mentality is the entire basis of AA. It's complete nonsense.