Thanks MSC. I think that that is it: I am giving it space. It has always been there, but mostly projected it on others and other things. I am accepting it and breathing towards it. I also had issues with my mother. She was dominant and hyper (man hating) feministic. Worked quite succesfully on that already and have a good relationship with her now. She has also changed. I have to get this anger towards my father out. He will not change. I just have to figure out what to do: still seeing him for my children, what to do when he gets sick or needs help otherwise (he has no one else), etc. Continuing as we have been doing before is not good for me. That would not be fair to me.