Any reason for why you deleted the contents of your old posts? I would have loved to be able to read about your thoughts. Keep fighting - day by day!
That is kind of sad, as forums like these obviously live off people sharing their experiences. But I can also understand that one does not want to share too much of their internal processes - especially when it is about such a delicate topic like ours. Stay on your way and maybe think about at least sharing what has helped you or what you have understood about yourself, even when it is kind of anonymized. I can only say that I would love to read about that. Have a good day and keep streaking!