I think almost three weeks is really a good job, especially in "lock down conditions". I'm sure the 20 days are not in vein and will help you out in your future efforts. Did the lapse come suddenly on day 20, or did it come gradually in the last few days ?
Saw very sexy scene in tv series and was thinking about it since yesterday. Drove myself to the point where I didn't want to calm down
That's tough man, especially if you don't know the scene is going to happen. But get back on the good grind and you'll be okay!
24 Days Everything's been amazing. No urges. Went on a wonderful trip with my friends. Asked out on a date a cute girl to which she said yes. It's getting better and I'm really thankful
Good that you are jumping straight back on the horse. Did you start working on that personal problem?
Stay strong, friend! Remember not to think of relapsing as "starting over", but instead to look at the overall trend of your PMO frequency. Every day that you don't PMO counts as progress towards not needing it in your life anymore, and relapsing doesn't erase that progress. In the fight against porn addiction, the forest is far more important than any one of the trees.
Okay, so going deeper want causes you to search for porn, or at what times are you likely to do this?
Sometimes craving for dopamine is associated with getting relief from certain feelings; for example stress or boredom.
