Borshajens journal

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by borshajen, Apr 10, 2012.

  1. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    you're in flatline.

    When the flatline ends be prepared for cravings. Are there still porn sources available in your house? If so get rid of them now, at this point it's still easier.
     
  2. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    How do I know if im in a flatline?

    And yes I have deleted all cues...im wise from my previous reboots.
     
  3. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    good job deleting every cue! I've learned from my relapses as well.

    Well you said it yourself: you want to sleep a lot, you feel no libido and everything seems boring. That's your flatline right there :)
     
  4. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    True...and my dick is like tiny.
     
  5. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    damnit I watched bikini pics and lingerie pics and touched my penis for like 30min. at least I didnt got an orgasm...but still
     
  6. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    brush it off and continue. Weren't you saying you were in flatline? It's not evil to get turned on by a picture of a girl in a bikini, just be aware of "clicking" behavior and edging. Those are two big things
     
  7. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    Yeah I would say im in a flatline. Tinydick, always tired. But I got hard when I watched a bikini pic at a forum and then I wanted to see more...and more

    I just peed and when I cleaned my dick I saw some semen, what happend? I thought semen comes out either in a wet dream or orgasm,
     
  8. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    that's normal. I had this as well when I masturbated later on in the reboot.

    one thing that I did was I tried to learn something from every relapse. So f.e. during the reboot my internet is blocked from 6 p.m. till 6 a.m. This works great! No more late night surfing and better sleep. Plus hardly any thoughts about relapsing.
     
  9. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    How do you block your internet?


    Update: I got a wet dream today... :( :( :(

    I've never had wet dreams before, and all of a sudden I get two in 30days.
     
  10. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    that's easy. You can do it through K9 or leechblock. You have options to do that. Since you just sorta relapsed, I would urge to let someone else do it for you. Since you're going to be using your password and that might trigger a relapse.

    Honestly who cares about that wet dream, stop whining and just keep going. You're a bit of complainer though.

    In fact I've never even had a wet dream my entire life :)
     
  11. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    Well thanks (not) for that!

    I had never had wet dreams but it has come now.
     
  12. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    what I mean is, you're not doing as bad as you think you are ;)
     
  13. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    40days!

    I feel so incredibly angry over anything. its just ridicoulus but i cant laugh over it because im angry. Everything feels so meaningless.

    Damnit im angry!! I could be a berserker right now
     
  14. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    why do you feel angry?
     
  15. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    I dont know! I just feel angry. I want to punch someone
     
  16. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    go ahead. I'm not going to stop you.
     
  17. Journey

    Journey New Member

    Haha the angry swedes are overtaking this forum! :p

    I like following your journal, you sound a lot like me, and I think you're doing well. The anger must just be something being uncovered by the reboot. "what would give light, must first endure burning."
     
  18. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    how are you doing actually?

    haha I think I offended him :D
     

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