Borshajens journal

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by borshajen, Apr 10, 2012.

  1. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    How do I know if im in a flatline?

    And yes I have deleted all cues...im wise from my previous reboots.
     
  2. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    good job deleting every cue! I've learned from my relapses as well.

    Well you said it yourself: you want to sleep a lot, you feel no libido and everything seems boring. That's your flatline right there :)
     
  3. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    True...and my dick is like tiny.
     
  4. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    damnit I watched bikini pics and lingerie pics and touched my penis for like 30min. at least I didnt got an orgasm...but still
     
  5. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    brush it off and continue. Weren't you saying you were in flatline? It's not evil to get turned on by a picture of a girl in a bikini, just be aware of "clicking" behavior and edging. Those are two big things
     
  6. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    Yeah I would say im in a flatline. Tinydick, always tired. But I got hard when I watched a bikini pic at a forum and then I wanted to see more...and more

    I just peed and when I cleaned my dick I saw some semen, what happend? I thought semen comes out either in a wet dream or orgasm,
     
  7. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    that's normal. I had this as well when I masturbated later on in the reboot.

    one thing that I did was I tried to learn something from every relapse. So f.e. during the reboot my internet is blocked from 6 p.m. till 6 a.m. This works great! No more late night surfing and better sleep. Plus hardly any thoughts about relapsing.
     
  8. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    How do you block your internet?


    Update: I got a wet dream today... :( :( :(

    I've never had wet dreams before, and all of a sudden I get two in 30days.
     
  9. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    that's easy. You can do it through K9 or leechblock. You have options to do that. Since you just sorta relapsed, I would urge to let someone else do it for you. Since you're going to be using your password and that might trigger a relapse.

    Honestly who cares about that wet dream, stop whining and just keep going. You're a bit of complainer though.

    In fact I've never even had a wet dream my entire life :)
     
  10. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    Well thanks (not) for that!

    I had never had wet dreams but it has come now.
     
  11. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    what I mean is, you're not doing as bad as you think you are ;)
     
  12. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    40days!

    I feel so incredibly angry over anything. its just ridicoulus but i cant laugh over it because im angry. Everything feels so meaningless.

    Damnit im angry!! I could be a berserker right now
     
  13. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    why do you feel angry?
     
  14. borshajen

    borshajen New Member

    I dont know! I just feel angry. I want to punch someone
     
  15. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    go ahead. I'm not going to stop you.
     
  16. Journey

    Journey New Member

    Haha the angry swedes are overtaking this forum! :p

    I like following your journal, you sound a lot like me, and I think you're doing well. The anger must just be something being uncovered by the reboot. "what would give light, must first endure burning."
     
  17. High_Achiever

    High_Achiever New Member

    how are you doing actually?

    haha I think I offended him :D
     

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