I am looking back at my past, and I am wondering if my behavior and my anxiety comes from porn and an overly sexualized culture and society. Let me explain this thinking of mine: I think that I have a fear to be single. But I don't know if it's a fear of being single or if it is just a fear of not having sex. I have had 5 gfs in the last 3 years. Some people told me it is a lot, but for me I ALWAYS feel lonely. I do not seem to be able to have a relationship longer than 3 months. I was with a girl for one year but it wasn't official. I think I loved her. But with the others there was always something that wasnt right since the beginning and I felt like it wasn't really what be in couple meant. I see those people who have love stories and who are in love for eachother. In my case. I feel like it's never the case. It's always a miss, I feel like after a while I can't stay true to mysrlf wth those girls. Now I am back at being single. The fact of being single makes me feel like I am a loser. Not having sex makes me feel like a loser. This feeling is strenghtened by the fact that there are a lot of articles about sex in the media and even if I never read them I see the titles. I am wondering: is this thinking porn induced? Do normal people have sex often and when they're single they do casual encounters? Are casual encounters even very common? Or do normal people (not fucked up people like us or like sex addicts or uliberal people) stay single and not have sex for months? I feel like everybody is having sex but me (or us if you want). Maybe it's because I've been around the wrong people and because I am porn addicted? Please can someone tell me I need to chill the fuck out and that life isn't just about sex. I have had insomnias and nightmares about my ex gfs lately and been thinking about one of them every day even though we burnt the bridges for almost one year.