2 days clean, hooray! Feeling a lot better. Went for a long walk and the playground with the kids and afterwards I did a really good work-out. Really happy with the work-out scheme I have now. I feel so much stronger and in balance. Also my back-aches and knots in my muscles are almost gone. I can also see that I am more muscular already and 5 kg above my regular weight. Been writing some more yesterday. Going through my past and writing down the stuff that comes up in my mind. It is painful and embarrassing and that means that it is good and necessary. I am bringing up memories that I forgot about for a long time. I also had that last year during my 4 month streak. Back then I thought it was the absence of PMO that brought up the memories, but probably that also had to do with my explorations of the past. I am going to continue with this. I really want to bring all my emotions to the surface, make them see the light and give them a place. I need to find and know myself now.