34 year old man, last watched hardcore pornography in December 2020. Since then, have substituted with soft stuff on youtube and erotic literature. Have edged frequently in the interim, but am clean as of two and a half weeks ago. I've made flailing attempts at rebooting and recovery before, but white-knuckled it, rather than actively changing my lifestyle and habits. My habit began at age 13, with VHS tapes of hardcore pornography. The habit intruded more and more on my life up until 17. I had a *brief break from it during my undergraduate years, but in graduate school (aged 22), I returned to it, this time on online tube sites, often for four hours at a time, twice a week, sometimes three times a week. I have enjoyed spells of sobriety ranging from 120 days up to 330 days, but have typically returned/relapsed to softcore clips. I believe it's important to be a member of a support community such as this one, where we embark on a collective journey to build our lives back up and to break bad habits. I also believe that reading the neuro-scientific literature on addiction and brain changes is important to put recovery into proper context and to fortify myself against the withdrawal symptoms that are sure to come--I'm in the midst of a flatline as I write this. I'll update this thread once a week to keep you all updated or if I have any questions.