I looked at porn the last 2 nights. Or maybe it is one big night. I was so tired from having to get up early for Christmas Eve because we had our bigger family Christmas then at my aunt's house. Then I didn't get much sleep that night either and had to get up even earlier for Christmas. I ended up falling asleep on the couch at like 4pm and slept, occasionally waking, until 2:30am. I got up then because I had slept 10 hours and stayed up. But later that night ended up looking at porn. And I stayed up that day until around 8 when I fell asleep in my chair until around 11. Then tried to stay up to fix my schedule a bit. But later that night I looked at porn again. In my mind that old familiar "It's only been a day so it's not like you're breaking a big streak or anything..." but harder to fight because I was tired. My one therapist had that saying "H.A.L.T." which is really true and useful. Are you Hungry? Angry? Lonely? Tired? and I add in Bored. Any of those things can cause you to misinterepret your body's feelings into thinking you want porn. If I can remember that and try to make sure to satisfy all those when I'm feeling an urge to look at porn it can be helpful. But I guess I was just too tired to even think straight. I should have realized I'd be vulnerable.