I went alright for 40 days. But after a while I tend to forget what the problem was. At that point I should read the posts starting from the last relapse, but I don't. I see it quite clearly now; it's all about making a decision. I haven't made a decision yet. But, every time I fail I become more convinced that making a firm decision is necessary. At the moment I'm still too depressed (amongst other things, such as restlesness and headaches) to write much. Maybe I feel better next week, when the withdrawal symptoms (or what is it?) will become less.