few urges. came here to resolve. when i get lost in thoughts i usually remember something wrong i had done, something like sexual things that doesnt suit me. its okay to be sexual but not in a obsessive way, for me its been for looking better and more intensive highs. I can find myself in very dark side of myself when got lost in there, chasing the abnormal sex.. its most important to me that i get this sex addiction under control. i think sexuality should be something u can lock down if need be and seductive girls are not that attractive so you would need to control seduction and not get drawn into it. someone said meet girls as a father character, recognize their beauty but not arouse sexual thoughts towards them. I dont know. i would hope you can have sex but long as this mental weakness goes on and about i just cant believe it. i would not want to speak to fully deny sex and sexuality but what can i do? i have tried the easy way out and it didnt work! deeper and full sobriety is needed. gotta get in control anyway i can. im sorry to myself that i have been weak and succumbed to sexual weakness, in few occasions. Its true that this is among hardest addictions to beat. I hope that people someday comes to believe and understand that. its only way to recover from deep shit we are in.