bad case, going for 90days and forever

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  1. jack91

    jack91 Find your way throuh Staff Member

    @Freedom from Servitude
    Sure man i truly wish best for you too and how we are going about it recovery is sure to come!! Continue social connections anyway you can. They help. Social life, friends and whatever are important. Train and it becomes fun and then you are alive again!
     
  2. jack91

    jack91 Find your way throuh Staff Member

    I made a post about 3 month experiment to stay away from phone, ybrb, internet, computers and television and of course MO. I want to do little update how that went
    I managed it and once again made that 90day goal line without relapsing to anything. Small success i fear but success non the less.
    Was it easy?
    Well i have had lots of training and put great many streaks before it and to note never i had more than two month streaks, so i had lots of problem staying sober before the experiment but somehow the experiment itself made it easier. I noticed that now i dont have phone taking my attention and sneakily feed me cravings i have much easier time avoiding them. So no cravings to watch porn for whole experiment. Then i guess it was kinda easy, in its own way.
    Was it fun?
    anyone can guess whether being sober and recovering is fun, unfortunately it always is not. But it wasnt that boring either, i have own social network that arent linked to phone use. I was working everyday and do bit of acting on the side, we have great group and am accepted there. So i focused myself to them. Not fun but tolerable. Its fun if you joke around, in general it could be fun if you make it fun. Its fun to stand for your own beliefs and its fun to actually recover when that happens.
    What are the upsides?
    A memory that i succeeded at something, put great streak again. Those add up and turn to confidence and belief i can trust myself. I trust myself to stay pure and be the man i want to be. Its best feeling in the whole world and definition of being adult. I go towards that feeling with every streak i put down. And there are other upsides i feel less need to masturbate in general sure i am horny at times but it isnt need to fap rather energy if channeled right can be strong tool to catch the babes.
    What now?
    I live without phone for little while longer. I start to use television again to check whether its a problem. In worst case scenario i continue the experiment if i start to have more urges / failures to be without MO.
    Good upcoming year everyone!!
    Stay sober and do not PMO!
     
  3. jack91

    jack91 Find your way throuh Staff Member

    Relapsed. Relapses, relapses and relapses. What can i do. I just Start again !! :D thinking how auzziemike is doing... Probably fully out of porn already. ...
     
  4. jack91

    jack91 Find your way throuh Staff Member

    soon i must go to theatre play we have. im sick having nasty flew and my nose is throat are full of saliva. No matter i must go play my role but lets see how the cycling goes because i lack any physical energy. Though i wanna be part of that group, they are all girls, upcoming and fun. really cheerful and fun bunch it was dope move to start there :D at times having hard time believing how good "training grounds" those are for me. and how easy it is to go there. haha thanks girls.

    i have moving ahead AGAIN. i move around a lot and been having mental problems in the place i live in now. seriously not for me. I dont wanna list why but next place could be better. I leave all my new friends and move on, seems that spiritual adult life is just moving on and nothing more. but the city i move is way bigger than one i live now and have SAA NA and AA group activity. Its good for me to dedicate on those issues.
     
  5. Freedom from Servitude

    Freedom from Servitude Active Member

    It is great that you are getting involved in these activities, especially with your social confidence issues. It is a positive sign of commitment to recovery. All the more the case that you are contemplating moving away from where you are at the moment. It can be a really nerve wracking experience, but one that pays dividends in the long run. Good luck with it! Its good news too that the city has 12 step groups. I always sing the praises of SAA on this forum because it has helped me enormously and I think a lot of the guys on this forum too would benefit from getting involved in the fellowship. In your case, it would be fantastic because it would allow you to get to know other recovering addicts who understand the same difficulties that you have been through.
     
  6. jack91

    jack91 Find your way throuh Staff Member

    exciting news i had new hights in having fun, in theatre play i carried myself better than expected and got girls to laugh time and again, they like me. evening was complete success. Now to reward myself with some music and stargate eps, having good, carefree time!
     

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