Hi All, I decided to reclaim my humble position here and try this process again. It's been almost a year and the excuses keep coming every morning. I made the commitment in 2011 to quit this habit and have seemingly attempted every compassionate reason both beyond "me" for the sake of collective greater good and still I continue to struggle. I will attempt to focus more on self compassion, a hard notion given the self loathing generated by years of failed attempts. I've tried normalizing PMO, but I think underneath the socially acceptable idea that anything a lot of people do is ok, like so many other social conventions with a fuzzy agenda, there is this rationalization and tolerance of victim hood that normalize it. Discipline and hard work are really the only thing that can truly solve this. The self esteem hit and the frustration are all a result of not putting in the effort. For me PMO is purely a mechanism to stave off anxiety and to give me a mental break from the constant flow of stress and anxious thoughts that stream through everyone's life. I need to implement meditation and commit to rebooting every day with a goal of a better sense of self at the end of the journey. I think the demons that may come out after day 21 are for me also a challenge. I find that territory extremely tough, the mind really starts to conspire against you, pulling up fears and anxiety at new intensities and the mere glimpse of porn is like eating food after a fast, it sort of reinforces why you never want to leave PMO. I don't mean to be negative on the process or dissuade anyone from cutting out PMO, its just a real challenge and it seems that every time I launch into it, timing seems to be all wrong and I somehow position myself to fail by struggling with the baby steps and protocol that other successful rebooters have implemented. I will attempt it once again and continue on my quest to tame this sinister beast...can't be right to PMO every day? I don't suffer from ED but more just a lethargy and feeling of exhaustion. Anyone tried CBD as an anti-anxiety alternative? or to sooth the cravings?