Now that I've signed up, I might as well start a little journal. Hi everyone! A few months ago I decided I needed help. My studies had, yet again, ground to a halt and this time it was clear to me that it was only my own behaviour that was to blame. Over the year I had gradually learned to accept that I was addicted. To gaming! However, when I let slip to the therapist that the P games were in particular problematic, he perked up. And the next session he had seemingly forgot all about the gaming and only spoke about P addiction. Now I had been aware of P addiction and YBoP for quite a while, but had dismissed it not once but twice, fearing it was more about misogyny and religion than actual science. Third time is the charm however, no small thanks to my therapist. Looking back I became addicted to both P and gaming shortly after my twelfth birthday when I got my own desktop computer in my room. With me being a depressed, tightly wound teenager that was a pretty major parenting mistake. But that's the power of hindsight. Eighteen years later I have no other way forward but to ditch my compulsions and to learn to live a life of only natural desires, needs and emotions. It's scary. I'm afraid of all the sadness and anger that I've tried to avoid feeling for all these years. But my back is to the wall. I have to fight for my life or die trying. Well, that feels about right for an introduction. I welcome your input, especially your support. Thanks for reading!