Back... a bit broken but maybe wiser?

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by Lowdo, Mar 5, 2019.

  1. Lowdo

    Lowdo Well-Known Member

    Right - daily update time. Nothing to report really, have had a good and mostly busy day.

    I had a good chat with my church pastor at lunch about stress and healthy ways of trying to deal with it. I'm hoping to have more regular chats and maybe having the opportunity to open up a bit more. I have chatted about PMO with a counselor before but he no longer lives in my town and it would be good to have a guy who I trust and can share a bit more with.

    Anyway, feeling upbeat - I hope you guys are all doing OK.
  2. Lowdo

    Lowdo Well-Known Member

    Right... daily update again. It's late. My wife is ill and asleep and the cat is doing it's best to p*ss me off :D I'm a bit stressed about work but nothing too serious...

    So... life I guess!

    I've had no urges to report. Planning to go for a run tomorrow - I love autumn running. Hope you're all keeping ok.
  3. Mad Dog

    Mad Dog Well-Known Member

    Your .mental aspect is quite good--- rave on brother !
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  4. Clovis6

    Clovis6 Well-Known Member

    Cats have a tendency to do that from time to time. They do it out of badness, as they say in Ireland.
  5. Lowdo

    Lowdo Well-Known Member

    @Clovis6 - thanks for that! I'll remember that phrase :)

    I've missed a few days but will try to catch up - all is ok on the no-PMO front. Life itself continues to be a bit stressful but autumn is my favourite season so I'm feeling fairly chilled. Hopefully that'll continue...

    I hope you're all well - take care everyone!
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  6. realness

    realness Member

    great to hear you're doing well brother. We have the best cat, but he has to go in the basement each night. Like clockwork he would try to play with us at 3 in the morning. Has anything else come of sharing your PMO fight with others? Most of the time it's been pretty disappointing for me. I was really clicking with a guy I met at church and it got really awkward when I shared with him why I had a rough week. Other times, people have been pretty supportive but never really follow up about it. I'm grateful that a Celebrate Recovery meets in my area. They have an open share where it is comfortable and encouraged to confess or share anything on your mind. I've always been interested in the Samson Society after reading the book about them by Nate Larkin, but unfortunately there is no group that meets in my area.
  7. Lowdo

    Lowdo Well-Known Member

    Hey @realness - thanks for the encouragement. I'm not aware of any pmo addiction related groups near where I live. It's a very small community so I've always been a bit cautious about opening up. I spoke to a pastor a few years ago and it was initially a positive experience as he was quite non-judgemental. Sadly it didn't last long as he didn't seem that interested in being a long term friend - he has since moved away... To be quite frank, this forum is a complete life-saver and is my main source of accountability.

    At the moment, I've been doing ok - no major urges and not feeling too stressed. I'm trying to ensure I take proper breaks at work and set aside 'me' time. I know it's a bit of a cliche but proper self-care does help reduce 'victim' mentality and associated feelings of entitlement.

    I hope you're all ok.
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  8. Lowdo

    Lowdo Well-Known Member

    Hi guys, just thought i'd drop in for a quick pre-weekend update. All is OK - still no significant urges and I'm still working on increasing my overall mental wellbeing. I have quite a bit to do this weekend but i'm carving out space tomorrow afternoon to go for a long run - it'll be a nice treat, especially followed by a curry and a beer. I hope you're all doing ok.
  9. Lowdo

    Lowdo Well-Known Member

    Hi all. All's pretty quiet on the lowdo front... I had a busier than expected weekend which led to a bit of stress and mental negativity. I still find it hard when things don't turn out how I planned - I can get pretty childish and feel like the world owes me an apology. In the past, left unchecked, this has led to relapses. This time I managed to be a bit more grown up. I made sure to get a bit of 'me' time even tho it wasn't what I'd planned.

    So, onwards and upwards...
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  10. realness

    realness Member

    Glad you are prioritizing and enjoying time to take care of yourself and enjoy life. Sounds like that, and ever more days without PMO are giving you clarity and self awareness when it comes to your weaknesses and character defects. Good stuff man, keep going!
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  11. Lowdo

    Lowdo Well-Known Member

    Hi all - sorry about the 10 day break. All's ok still - i'm trying to keep negativity and all the other unhealthy stuff in check. Some days are better than others. ;-)

    I have nothing very interesting to report so I'll head off to read some of your journals. Take care everyone!
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  12. positivef

    positivef Active Member

    Good to hear your still okay. How are you dealing with negativity?

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