Hey Gil - thanks for the question: it's got me thinking. There have definitely been different pressures (work stress, family stuff, parents getting older). The stuff almost all of us face at some point or another. I think the key thing that I allowed to go wrong though was I got back into the mindset that P or M (both really, cos they're so linked!) was stress-relieving. That allowed me to think that holding off of them was only making me more stressed... when in actual fact getting caught back in my addiction has only massively multiplied the stress... PMO does not relieve stress. I need to keep telling myself that. Take care everyone.