Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by Lowdo, Mar 5, 2019.
Outstanding. Every victory even small ones are such a positive
Glad to see you here!
Hi guys. This is hard but I have to come back here straight away - I was left alone earlier with an unprotected browser and made a fucking bad choice. I'm having to make myself type this because everything in me wants to just disappear for a few weeks and confess some other time - then people will still think I'm a victorious no-fap warrior. Truth is, I screwed up.
I need to get my head straight again and that's going to involve some serious discipline - both for monitoring my behaviour but also not slipping into a self-hate thing. Anyway - I'm going to need you all. I'm still determined, but obviously not as strong as I thought...
Right. Still here. Feeling a lot better than yesterday. Even managed to do some writing yesterday.
Hope you're all OK.
Try to avoid the temptation to escape. It's inevitable that we will sometimes have uncomfortable feelings but they are part of life.
It's good that you were honest and came here to post. And remember you're doing this for yourself, for your own peace of mind - and that's priceless. Sounds like you have some good self awareness.
Thanks @forlorn - and to all you guys on the forum for your support over the years. I'm just checking in - all's ok at the mo. Hoping to have a relaxing but full weekend. Take care, all of you.
Hi guys. I'm really sorry - I relapsed again last night. No excuses. Classic self-delusion (it won't matter if I google this...)
I know my thread isn't making very good reading at the moment. I clearly haven't learnt the lessons from my last backslide last year. I need to go back to basics so:
I will post here daily - to check in, keep my intentions alive and read your stories
No devices anywhere near me at night
Plan stuff to keep me busy when I might be vulnerable
At the first sign of danger, drop everything and do something else
Thanks for still being here. I hope you're doing better than I am.
Sorry to hear. I am a bit in the danger zone myself with a lot of sexual fantasies.
Posting here daily is an enourmous benefit. I'd say, especially if things are not going so well it is important to express yourself.
I am sure you have learned lessons and improved. It is important to focus on that and where you want to go.
Keep it up!
Thanks @Gil79 - I'm doing OK. I find coming back to the forum really hard when I know I've screwed up but I also know it's the only way to stop a mistake from becoming a 6 month mess. Thanks for your support.
The last 24 hours have been OK - I've been inspired by your daily health checklist and might try to do something similar myself. Keep yourself safe - I know that feeling of being in the danger zone. Try to be good to yourself in other ways - i.e. indulge in other good stuff/treats rather than succumbing to the urge to fantasize.
Thanks all of you!
Right - just very quick check in. It's been a busy day so not really any time for urges etc. General mood is a bit up and down but hoping for a chilled evening. Hope you're all doing OK.
You are doing what you must carry on!
Hey guys. Sorry no post yesterday but I actually had a really good day - even ended with a proper bit of intimacy with the wife. Consequently had a really good sleep and have had a day off today which I spent almost entirely out in the garden. So grateful for you support and encouragement. I'm still plodding on and steering away from danger...
Just checking in at the start of the day to say all's good. I'm really busy at work at the moment which is good in some senses but can also affect stress. I'm trying to balance working hard with sensible breaks and stress-relieving activities: I'm now pretty certain that stress and anxiety are major underlying drivers towards PMO.
Hi guys. Not quite managing to stick to my daily journaling commitment
With work and life in general being so stupidly busy I've been very little time for anything but have at least managed to prioritise a fair bit of running and gardening which have helped my mood immensely. Otherwise, all is fairly good. I've still being struggling with low moods in the last few days but nothing to report on the PMO urges front thank goodness.
I've been doing more activities as well, which seems to help. The days that I'm feeling low are difficult. However, they're not difficult because of urges, but because I'm just learning to sit with the uncomfortable feeling of being down. That's not easy. I hope work calms down for you soon.
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