So. I'm at the centre of the valley of boredom, at a standstill. No wind, no movement, no thoughts. Tired from doing nothing. Flatline. Masturbated as a form as trying to reach for something in that silent fog, got nothing. As I am now, I know and want nothing. I don't move. Maybe this is by mistake, maybe this is necessary. I wouldn't know. I feel I kind of need to learn everything again, but different this time. The only thing I can think of that seems worthwhile pursuing is this: Find out what is important to yourself, find a way to do it and keep doing it and abandon any distraction from it. I have so much time on my hands and so little focus and attention. I'll need to move slow (not an issue) and purposefully (quite an issue.) It is time tho. Time to step back into my stuff. Been avoiding porn, nice, keep that and cut down masturbation, keep that and work on it, but now I have to pick up leading that life of mine. Only different. And give up all these distractions.