Some shifts. More work. Less time alone. Switching through the modes. Less focus on soul/mind/loneliness. Moving quicker now, less thoughtful, though. Everything has a price, everything has a pay-off. The old dance, I guess. Thing is, I didn't MO for more than two days. I was just busy. So if I keep adding speed, will that disable my problem, just put it into the background to wither? Probably. I need to not forget how to look into my soul. And I need doing that. But porn, masturbation, orgasm as a focus seem to be quickly moving out of the picture. There be other dragons here. Shapeshifting into another set of problems, another questline. I have been like that for years, no reason I should be changed now, just because I've been changing. That would make zero sense now, would it.