My main problem aren't urges to watch P anymore. I think I mentally already stored P away in a ''dirty, lame'' closet years ago. When I went to P, I would do so because of two big reasons: the easy availability of it, and to distract myself. the main things i wanted to distract myself from with P are: - from boredom, a cheap thrill ride. - from lonely feelings: tfw no gf might ring a bell for some of you - sexual dissatisfaction: without P or a relationship, nothing on the sexual side ever really happens in your life, which can get really frustrating. when it comes to approaching girls, i feel like i just freeze in the moment. a huge wave of stress engulfs me. It's like i just can't feel comfortable in any way doing that, and it probably shows. I am anxious that my Asperger's incapacitates me from approaching, although I logically do know that i'm probably exaggerating. well thanks for peering into my abyss, feel free to unload your thoughts unto me as well.