@Bestrongnopmo ah that is hard man! Are you ok at the moment? A friend was having these and he needed medical examination from a professional and medical support. Best to have a doctor check it out! How long have you had these attacks, or was it a one-off today?
Day 4 No P Day 26 No MO I feel good,lot of energy,no morning wood,daydreaming,still demotivated, No anxiety, my pshicaly is ok but low in psychic. I do morning pray,Grateful pratice,Ho’opoonopono.
Day 5 I feel good,Awkward feelings when chatting with others but its ok,social anxiety improved,I'm sleep deprived (only 5 hours of sleep is usually 8 hours) it cause feel sleepy , I'm too sensitive to light like vehicle lights and the reflection of morning sunlight,How to cure it?
I had a dream and woke up, the dream was quite scary (I won't tell you) and there was also a dream about flashbacks about the first person I liked when I was in middle school, the woman appeared in my dream and greeted me and I greeted her with a smile, what I learned in my dream where in reality I have never said fond words to him even though in my heart I really wanted to say it but for some reason I couldn't say it because I thought I didn't want to hurt him or hurt him. Yes, the thing that I regret is not having the courage to confess my love to him, oh yes btw he was love at first sight in my puberty (pre-teen). I realized that he now belongs to someone else, he is married and has a child. Now I can pray to God, realize, forgive and try to forgive even though the love is still there and buried deep in my heart. Sometimes when I tell a story like this, I shed tears hmmm "I'm sorry" maybe that's what I want to say to him now.
good afternoon, I'm feeling anxious, restless and a little scared. Social anxiety has improved a lot. I gathered with my friends to just chat. I haven't experienced morning wood, am I on a flatline? I dunno,but I'm also not interested in watching P or MO there's no urges for that.
Day 7 getting off social media is a good thing, especially to maintain mental health and even improve it, for several months I have not used it. In this morning I feel good, brain fog is starting to improve, yesterday afternoon I had felt anxiety,no morning wood (no need to worry too much),I've calmed down a bit, not easily angered/emotional, more patient (maybe because of the influence of semen retention day 28). God bless u all
Day 8 olfactory/taste sensors are too sensitive, I've been smoke-free for over a year (I eat spicy food, I often choke), this morning no morning wood, many dreams but not clear, hard to get out of bed even though I've slept for more than 8 hours, can't feel pleasure , lack of motivation,feeling sleepy even though you sleep enough, not excited.
last night I relapsed, this morning I feel good, my head hurts a little from lack of sleep maybe. I will start again,I need support
Back on track, Day 1, I feel better,was depressed, still with brain fog, still feeling tired, I go to bed early and wake up early, hoping this morning there is sun to sunbathe
Why do I keep curious looking and looking for screen scrolls trying to find something on something empty (internet). Anyone can help me? Is it because of emptiness? like when I open the browser on my cellphone and try too many times to test the P blocker and finally unknowingly I just unblock or break the block so I find P there and relapsed? What is wrong with me?
Could be boredom and vacuum left by porn. You are trying to expose yourself to triggers by scrolling aimlessly. Just internet surfing can make you more susceptible for relapse. I would stay away from internet if there is no end goal in mind.
yes that's what I'm working on, controlling myself to scroll aimlessly or leave the internet for some time.
I relapsed, from last night I couldn't sleep because of a stuffy nose due to the cold, I rarely stayed up late (sleep on time) but not for the night. I reminded myself that peeking is forbidden, typing P star’s name is also strictly forbidden. keep it up for myself.
if it is realized that messaging applications or social media are bridges to connect with people, but unfortunately it is not complete, it does not represent the presence of that person, we are connected but not fully connected. I've been inactive for several months using social media, before I was there almost every day haha, I have to thank myself for this, realized that social media is not important, yes I need friends I need to express myself but social media is not a place that It's right for me to realize that there's no need to show everyone everything because it's not important haha I think that social media is the gateway to the brain understanding that it is inhabited by real people but it seems that it's the conman's part of my brain because not everything there represents their whole life, or it was my mistake in rationalizing it.