Day 47 I'm finally completely caught up in reality thanks to a week of assessments in every class. I've been studying basically non stop for the past 3 days but I'm still not gonna be able to do well on some of my tests this weeks because I realized how far I was behind too late. Despite that, I'm actually proud of myself for managing to see what's important for me, and honestly doing my best. Especially yesterday, I studied over 12 hours, which is something that would be unimaginable if I was myself from 2 months ago, and not who I am today. I felt really irritable but after recognizing that I was trying my hardest, I felt a little more at ease with myself and that understanding led to me being less grumpy. I'm basically writing this on a small study break right now, about to get back into it. Another thing that I did when I started to feel really grumpy and irritable was that I wrote down all the things that I'm looking forward to doing once I get through these next couple of weeks of intense studying. I don't know why, but it made these long days ahead seem more manageable. One day at a time, doing my best everyday.