Thank you for your post. I finally gave up. I relapsed today . since about 4 of you have told me its still the same thing since i have been watching porn ...i just thot well let me go all the way then. About organising my finances better, well i guess maybe that is what porn has done to me. I lack desire to want to improve, i lack desire to want to succeed. unfortunately i am a core phlegmatic temprament. on a normal day i am very laid back, allowing things to happen to me. i guess the porn addiction made that even worse for me now. So for me to really go on this journey, i need to cut away from porn totally, not that i watch porn a little and then not masturbate, as long as i see a naked body i have fallen . God will help me.