Well... I'm back. Went away for a few years since wasn't really into this anymore but now I'm just sick of it and try to use every tool I can to quit. The reason I'm back is journaling and support/advice/help from others. That's it. And I try to help others too. Things are going better, graduating this year so my life has gone forward. But want to get rid of this shit. I don't underestimate it but neither myself and my resolve to quit. Like the category text in "Age 25-29" says, "You have watched enough already." Yep. I'm so over and tired of this shit, but gotta stay humble and patient, my day will arrive, I know it. The guys who remember me, let's fight against this together again (still, sorry to see that you're still here since we all want to leave this place eventually and go on living our lives freely, right?). To newcomers, hopefully you can get some advice from my posts. I think I know pretty well at least what doesn't work and I believe you won't want to end up like me (trying to quit after 7 years since I started this in 2013). More update and advices in the posts to come but just want to get this out in here now. And let's make this clear: porn (especially internet videos) is the sole problem, not masturbation, orgasms or sex. So porn is what I'm trying to quit. No nofap but pornfree. I've noticed that that before, I just masturbate for a few days but it becomes boring and eventually, it gets back to porn. If masturbation and orgasms were "enough", there would be no need for porn. But what is "porn"? Imagination cannot put viruses on your computer. Besides, it's more about the searching part than seeing actually. Don't search (on internet) of nude pictures and sex videos. Pop ups happen but just close them, you weren't looking for them precisely so it's okay. Besides, you can't fool yourself what your intentions were. But about the counter, I delete it if I watch porn/nude pics, masturbate and orgasm at the same time. Something like that. It's difficult to put into words exactly, but I know for a fact when I've relapsed. Let's just hope that doesn't happen ever again so don't have to think about it. If you're going to say "dude, go talk to someone in real life, seriously", don't. I get it but don't. Because I won't do that. I have this deeply ingrained feeling inside me that this is my fight to win. This is really personal for me. Telling someone (internet forum is kind of telling someone but I still dont consider it the same as telling someone in real life), I would forever take it as giving up. And I'm not going to give up. Maybe I waste my time, you might say, but this is my choice. I will beat this fucker and take the credit someday in the future on a glorious day that I thoroughly deserve. All of this shit will be a lifelong lesson and quitting will be the cherry on the top of it. I'm just trying to use all the tools I've got and gathered in these years and do the things that work and avoid the things that doesn't. Gotta put up a counter in a couple of days (I also have a spreadsheet in excel on my computer which is my 1st tip to newcomers, USE A SPREADSHEET. Counter motivates you but spreadsheet makes you see the bigger picture. Trust me on this. Everyone wants to quit this at their first take. And many guys are still here. DON'T UNDERESTIMATE THIS. Spreadsheet makes you see progress 10 times better in the long run if it is a long run. Believe me, you wish you had started). What is considered "I have quit this?." Don't know but I know I'm not watching today. That's it. 18PM 1/10/20, is the starting point. Goal is counter clean till 1/2/2020 (I don't count the days, counter does that for me). Then I put up a new goal. When I have quit this for good? Don't know but I know I'm not watching today. If you want to see someone's journal towards finally quitting this after 7 years of trying, stay tuned. Because hopefully I'm the only guy on this forum who is at that point. How I'm different this time? This time I won't do this for the benefits or the girls. If they happen, they're bonuses. I'm doing this for me. Just for me. This journal is to show as a proof that even after all this time (7 years), it's still possible to quit, there's still hope. I still have this same feeling, like I did in 2013, that life would be better without it. It's exactly the same feeling, haven't changed a bit. If I need a reason to quit, that's my reason. Because I want a better life. That feeling is my "Why?". Let's go. Hard Days (the days that really make the difference & to show me that they don't last) Day 8.