Hi guys hope you’re all well. I’m 24 years old and I was watching porn more or less everyday from the age of 11/12 and I’ve developed PIED, I’m a very anxious person, never been a confident person I’ve always struggled to meet new people and I feel like this is all down to my constant porn use. So I started nofap and semen retention (except wet dream) on June 7th, I stopped watching all porn. Tried to limit all Instagram use incase Of seeing all of these Instagram models etc. but on day 107 I relapsed, I didn’t know what came round me and I couldn’t help myself. I feel I needed this now I’ll be able to stop my urges better. I have no interest in watching porn anymore. After the relapse I got back to my nofap, however I’ve been on Instagram a lot more.. I haven’t been searching or looking at an explicit content I just use it for work but I’m going to go back to limiting it again. I have a few questions and do need some advice, I’ve watched all the videos on YouTube and read all the YBOP, Your brain rebalanced post but just wanted some reassurance in what I need to be doing. Firstly my main issue I find now is that I stare at women loads. I was in central London yesterday and there was so many attractive girls and I can’t help but looking/staring. Do I have to just force myself not to look at this moment in time? Even when I go to the gym there’s obviously so many girls wearing gym clothing and it’s hard not to look. Will this be detrimental to my recovery? I’ve read many thing about dopamine, dopamine detoxes etc and I saw people recommending not to watch movies, not to listen to music and they’re unproductive ways that spike your dopamine. I feel like this is a unsustainable lifestyle however if it is necessary I can do it whilst recovering. Please do advice me on this. I feel as if I’ve mad small progress through the start of my journey even with my relapse, I sometimes feel a blood rush down there when thinking or hearing something. It’s nothing major but it’s a difference I’ve noticed. I’m definitely going the carry this on and I hope to see some real progress soon. I just want to make sure I’m making the most of this time so If you guys have any tips on what help me recover from my PIED and other symptoms please do let me know. Thanks guys.
You might have lost to the devil, but you didn't give up. The pitfall with willpower is the self-loathing that comes with failure. I'm not sure if this will be as useful to you as it has been useful to me, but this is all I can give you. https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLMx-QwNxTnN0rvxUt9C3ThluLlbw3KsUE (The Easy Peasy Way to Quit Porn, Uploaded by How I Found Freedom in an Unfree World).
Hii. I'm 23.male. hooked to porn since 2014 that is from 14 years of age. It has been around 7years a addict. Things have drastically degraded. My confidence, self esteem, social anxiety, sleeplessness and much more. But this time is for career growth and academics. My academics have been degraded badly . My concentration has affected badly. Focus memory power almost zero. I have tried reboot. My best was 129 days. But I relapsed and then sort of edged for 5 months. And still I'm a bit using. But now decided to quit . What I realised that I had everything decided but the only thing lacking was an accountability partner and a forum . So here I'm . Looking for them. Help. Thankyou
