Age 20 - PIED caused by femdom porn.

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by danny2001, Aug 6, 2021.

  1. danny2001

    danny2001 New Member

    So about me. I have recently turned 20 and have had limited sexual experiences (just some kissing and touching). Around a month ago, I was getting off with this incredibly attractive girl I have recently been seeing. We were kissing, we got naked, we were feeling each other, but the whole time I could feel NOTHING from my penis. Not even a semi. Just 10 minutes before hand we were cuddling watching Netflix and I was hard just from that. But when she was naked in front of me and its time for sex - nothing. I made up some story to her about a bad sexual experience I had for the reason I couldn't get it up, trying to hide the embarrassment.

    After this incident I went looking for answers. That is when I discovered YBOP. I started masturbating to pron between 13-14. Initially all straight vanilla porn, with some lesbian as well. Then this escalated to lesbian strap-on BDSM at around 15, then to pegging videos soon after. At around 17 was when I got into JOI vids, which quickly led to femdom joi vids, which have been the main vids I jerked off to from 17 to now. I have never done any live cam sessions, but I would frequently seek out femdom videos where I would have to repeat degrading mantras and be edging/gooning for a long period of time (fuck I just got hard typing that out). I wouldn't say I was a full blown addicted as I only PMO'd around 1-2 times a week, sometimes 3, but the type of stuff I was watching has defiantly had a damning impact. Every time after PMOimg to these femdom vids I would feel like pure shit. I know now that this is a porn-induced fetish.

    After this recent incident I have decided to never jerk off to femdom porn again, and probably not to any other forms of porn. I havent PMO'd to femdom in about 6 weeks now but I have PMO'd a few times to vanilla porn since this incident to prove to myself that I could still get off to it (the first couple times were hard but the last few times I did stay hard for most of the time PMOing to it and ngl I felt good afterwards too). It has been a few days since I last PMO'd to vanilla.

    Already I have little to no cravings for femdom at all. The slight flashbacks that do appear in my head I shut down with ease. I really feel no attachment to that sort of porn and I can whole heartedly say I will NEVER watch that shit again.

    Since the incident, I have distanced myself with this girl which has been agony. Like she's very cool and genuinely one of the prettiest girls I have ever met - but I'm scared I won't be able to get it up again. She goes to university in my city but is going back home for a bit, but coming back in a few weeks I think. I myself will be leaving for uni in a months time. Part of me thinks I should just forget her during this last month before leaving for uni while I reboot. But part of me thinks I shouldn't let this opportunity pass and should see her in a few weeks time (when i would have gone a month with out MO and just over two months without watching femdom porn) and just see what happens. Maybe by then I'll be better and by just staying calm and in the moment I can perform intercourse; or worst case scenario just give her oral.

    Also, I have been debating the idea of PMOing to vanilla porn once every week or two to help rewire while I reboot. The few times I did it after the incident I did feel myself getting more aroused by vanilla porn and the Os did feel a lot better than the ones I had off femdom. I also didn't fee much shame after (as long as I didn't stay on the porn site for too long, looking for the right video). I don't feel this would lead me back to femdom but I also dont know if this would help provide me with any type of 'real' libido.
     
    Last edited: Aug 6, 2021
  2. danny2001

    danny2001 New Member

    I should also note that I'm still getting morning wood most mornings and the random hard on here and there through out the day.
     

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