Hey, everyone. I found yourbrainonporn awhile ago, but just discovered this forum, and I think I would really benefit from the support of people who are going through/have gone through the same process I am. I'm 19 years old and a full-time student, and I've been using porn since I was about 11 or 12. I've always had a love/hate relationship with it because of my religious beliefs, and I've tried to quit many, many times in the past several years, even before I found YBOP. But I just entered into a committed relationship with a fantastic girl a few months ago, and I've noticed that I have some of the symptoms of ED (lack of erections, erections fade quickly). I saw that it was hurting her and causing her to question herself and her own value and beauty, so I decided that this time I needed to do it for real - for myself and for her. Right now I'm on 19 days of no porn, though I have masturbated three times to light sexual fantasy (always concerning my girlfriend, and not porn scenarios). She's been phenomenal throughout the whole process; we've been friends for several years now and she's been nothing but supportive and compassionate throughout the whole thing. She helped me set up a stricter filter on my computer and my phone and she's always available for me to call or text if I'm going through temptation. The reason that I wanted to join this forum, however, is that things seem to have taken a turn for the worse lately. About three or four days ago, I started feeling extremely anxious, depressed, and lonely. My birthday was a few days ago as well as my first day of work; my family came in from out of town and took me out to eat and all the people at my new job were extremely warm and helpful, but I was fighting back tears the whole day. I've lost interest in a lot of things that used to bring me pleasure (reading, music, being outdoors, hanging out with friends), I keep feeling like I'm on the edge of crying, I've broken down and cried a few times for no visible reason, and I have this irrational fear/conviction that I'm friendless and alone. I mean, a few of my friends are out of town for the summer, but I still have a couple people around that I've known for a long time and with whom I'm close. So there's no logical reason for me to be feeling this way. I think the worst part of it right now is that my girlfriend is in California for a few weeks. We still talk, of course, but I won't be able to see her for another three weeks or so, and she's the person with whom I'm closest and who's been helping me out the most. I haven't really been tempted to relapse so far, though I'm still very much on guard. This whole round of depression seems to be coinciding with my flatline - I can still get mildly aroused or excited, but I haven't had a spontaneous erection in about a week and overall my penis seems to be more shrunken than usual. I suppose I just wanted to hear from other people and find out if any of this strikes a chord. Have any of your withdrawals been like this? Are withdrawals typically this intense, and do they usually happen at this point in the process? How long can I expect this to continue? Answers, support, or even just sharing your own experiences are all very much appreciated. Thanks, guys.