Age 18 - Getting healthy again.

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  1. Uncensored

    Uncensored I don't give a shit about PORN anymore

    Hi

    I am 18 years old, started with Erotic stuff/Porn with 12-13 but PMO started with about 14.. So I did this shit for 4-5 years :-\
    I watched porn almost everyday and masturbated once a day.. sometimes twice. But there were also days where I didn't watch porn.. Read this thread if you want to know more: http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=19069


    In this thread I want to post my progress and try to update it when necessary. I can tell I made some progress already.

    So let me summarize:
    first week: flatline
    second week: flatline
    day 14-15: out of flatline

    exactly on day 14 i started to get extremely urges.. and yeah you can imagine what happened. I MO'd but without any fantasy just with sensations only. I got hard within 30 seconds and O'd in 2mins. Before Nofap I had to touch myself at least 3-5mins. Fapping without fantasy was impossible and even when i fapped with fantasy it took a looong time (at least 6-10mins, my arm started to hurt haha)
    But I didn't see it as a relapse. I didn't feel depressed or shit and I didn't went to flatline again.

    On day 18 I started to get morning and night wood and spontaneous erections through the day. On top of that since then I feel very horny. Today (20th day) I had a bad night. I couldn't sleep well because i went very early to bed so I was awake at 2am.
    I woke up with a hard boner and had extremely urges again but I didn't MO. I got boners the whole night (without touching myself or conscious fantasy) it started to hurt already.

    Finally after 2-3 hours awake in bed i fell asleep. I dreamed weird stuff and it led to sexual stuff and I dreamed that I'm fucking a chick. But it looked more like a movie of myself and I'm seeing myself as a 'cameraman' can't describe it. I thought I'm fantasizing so I tried to stop it, but it was such a weird situation I never would fantasize that. It was like a lucid dream. I was half asleep.. I thought the whole time that I'm just fantasizing but i was dreaming, so I tried to stop. Then I got awake and became aware what is happening right now. I woke up during the orgasm I had a FUCKIN big boner and i felt my dick pulsing like shit. 2 seconds more and I would have ejaculated but I was able to stop. I am really sure that would have been one of the best orgasms in my life, it felt so good and I was horny as shit. So it was almost a wet dream.. I was so mad because I didn't ejaculated. I stopped it because I didn't realize that I was dreaming. A bit scary.. I read a lot that wet dreams are a good sign? but Im a bit confused. I NEVER had a wet dream before in my life
    Well I fell asleep and got morning wood again when I woke up.

    I still feel horny, but I want to fuck and I don't want to masturbate. I try my luck today with a girl and I will post here again tomorrow...
     
  2. daroghunae

    daroghunae New Member

    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    Hey man! My thoughts on your reboot are:
    don't focus that much man, your overthinking stuff... thinking too much about flatlines, morning woods, etc.
    My advice is just forget about it! Do your thing, work, school, and just live on and forget that porn ever existed! Of course there will be thoughts but overanalyzing things rarely is good.
    And also, forget about your counter either! Go out with girls, spend time with them, try sex if you'd like, a fail attempt at this stage is still nice progress for your brain, don't forget that! When you see it you will be past 3 months and rockin iT!
    Good luck man!
     
  3. Uncensored

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    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    Thank you for your post fude.
    Yeah I think you're right. I don't know but thoughts aboit the reboot always pop up although Im trying everything to stay busy.
     
  4. Uncensored

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    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    3rd week today. Nothing new happend
    Had no morningwood today (maybe because i was still drunk and had a hangover this morning)

    Didnt try to fuck yet. Had no time yesterday and didn't feel optimistic about it.
    Today i will not drink and try it. Im quite optimistic now and my dick feels sensitive again when i touch it. I try to not have high expectations

    In the last days I touched my dick alot but no M or edging just a soft touching. I'll avoid that now.

    Is rewiring that importanz? If I'll try to fuck this girl and Im unnable to get an erection but I'm fingering her while she gives head to my flaccid dick, will my brain start to rewire? I dont really understand the process in the brain.. I know what rewiring means though
    Can sumbody explain?
     
  5. Uncensored

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    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    day 22

    Morning wood again, got a bit ill so I didn't meet with the girl..
    Got strong urges this morning again, but I resisted.. Maybe its better to wait with my attempt to fuck. Next week I didn't see a naked woman for ~1 month.. Have to try it.
    The pressure on my balls are gerring big untill next friday. I hope I don't MO, although I don't see it as a relapse if i would MO.. A wet dream would be nice too, so I'm not that horny anymore

    Also I feel sexually more natural. I don't know how to describe it, never felt like this. I'm glad I'm not in a flatline, the first two weeks I was like asexual.
     
  6. Uncensored

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    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    day 23

    Had no morning wood today but I don't give a fuck anymore about MW
    Went to the gym today after a few weeks and I want to train regulary now again.. On the way to the gym I got some spantaneous erections.

    I'm really motivated about the gym thing and school. I have an exam tomorrow and I start to learn now and will learn a few hours. At PMO times I didn't learn so much I learned like 10-20mins because I was so unmotivated and lazy.
    Also I have a strong desire to have sex.. I want it so bad. I shouldn't think about it so much (not fantasizing) I don't know where I stand..
     
  7. Uncensored

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    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    day 24

    No MW. Had a few erections as I was traveling with the bus. I had alot eye contact with a girl, which gave me a boner. she looked like a real slut but she was hot as fuck, if I wouldn't be on my way to school I wouldve talked to her. Had too much school stuff in my head.

    day 25

    Big (!) desire to have sex. I wanted to edge but i realized it wouldn't be good.
    I made some music instead. Also I realized that everything in TV is sexrelated. I mean I heard people talk about that, but never thought about that topic. I was surprised that I always ignored that fact. Its unbelievable. Almost everything is sexrelated, its disgusting.
    I'm way more clear in my head now and I heard myself say how beautiful that girl is, who I saw. I was so amazed that a human beeing can be so beautiful. Never noticed me saying such a thing. My old thoughts about that girl would have been dirty as fuck

    I feel so naturally and no sign of a flatline. Its exact the opposite. Rising libido..
     
  8. collin dre

    collin dre Guest

    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    Yo bruh you starting to see some effects...now you got a long way to go and you gotta put all your focus on getting other shit done like you are doing now..at this rate,if you keep up with this pace,you will fucking complete your streak..good luck bruh
     
  9. Uncensored

    Uncensored I don't give a shit about PORN anymore

    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    thank you bro ;)
    Im optimistic I never want to watch porn again. I feel like a loser when I think about how I watched porn and masturbated to these movies.
    I can't understand the guys on this forum who are whining and are pessimistic. If you want to kick this addictions butt, you can do it easily.
    It was the same situation with stopping weed. If you WANT it, you can do it. Although I needed 2-3 attempts to stop smoking but it was because I wasn't sure WHY I should stop.. As soon as I noticed that I got bad grades and a lot of problems with people on street because of weed I quit instantly.

    So and now, today where I know the enemy (PMO) and know why I didn't take the chances to fuck girls, I'll never want to PMO EVER again.
    I don't want to have ED in my 20's..
     
  10. Uncensored

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    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    UPDATE:

    TRIGGER WARNING!
    The last days, nothing new happend. No flatline..... but today night I DID IT GUYSSS! SUCCESSS
    So I was at this Girls house. She started to give me head to my flaccid dick. I closed my eyes and only thougt: COME ON COME COME ON DONT DO THIS! (to my dick :D) Then I felt how my blood is going straight to my dick and he started to rise! I opend my eyes and saw my hard dick. This hot girl gave head to my boner! I felt like a fucking boss and made a party in my mind haha. While she gave head I fingered her and played with her clapped her ass and played with her tits. On top of that my dick was fucking sensitive it felt soooo damn good, not like that last time, where the girl gave head to my dead dick. Unfortunately my dick wasn't 100% hard, I would say 70%

    I started to fuck her doggystyle, afterward reverse cowgirl. The only problem was I didn't O'd. I could have fucked her 1 hour I wouldn't ejaculate. She started to jerk me off but I didn't O. Anyway, I think I made her orgasm with my dick and my three fingers.

    I think I didn't orgasm because my dick wasn't fully erect. If my dick was harder I would have O'd. Whilst I was fucking her doggy, my dick slipped out of her pussy a few times. On top of that I was drunk + the condom killed some sensations.
    After I was home I didn't MO, although I was horny as fuckkk. I want to try it again today. Sober and maybe with some cialis.

    But nevertheless my dick's alive again!!!!!! And I rewired, but I don't want to have this girl as a GF she's a slut, everybody here know her. She has a bad reputation.
     
  11. Uncensored

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    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    Day 29:
    MW, feeling very good/naturally. Maybe I visit this girl again. The positive thing now is I don't have any performance anxiety anymore, but Im afraid of DE now..
    Can somebody answer? Many people are reading but no one responds haha
     
  12. Uncensored

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    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    So Im now one month in this reboot..
    Feeling fucking great. Way better than the first week for example. Its like I lost something. It feels like a big stone fell away from my back, great feeling. Im feeling free
    Can somebody explain me the dopamine processes in the brain? Is dopamine only related to orgasm?
     
  13. Uncensored

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    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    Fuck this updateshit here. I'll post here in 60 days again..
     
  14. Uncensored

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    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    Haha I was very angry that day I made my last post.

    Nothing changed. But some stuff in my head changed. I can eliminate 'bad' thoughts way better than before. For example If Im going to sleep and I start to close my eyes I always got a ''inner cinema''. I randomly started to fantasize and I had to open my eyes so I don't start to fantasize and make it even worse.

    Now today, I can kick the ass of these thoughts easily which pop up in my head. Its way more easy to think about something else.
    I don't want to fap either. Also I don't want to see P anymore. I didn't even have urges to watch P since I started my reboot. Its weirdo-shit and I don't want to watch and spend my time with this bullshit.
    Tomorrow I'll be again with a girl and my goal is to get a 100% erection and want to ejaculate (I know its a big goal). Last week I got about 70% but it still was an awesome/hot session, although I didn't have an orgasm. I'm glad that I could even fuck her. My problem is that I am afraid that I got issues with delayed ejaculation. Also last week the sex didn't feel THAT good like I imagined, but the feeling whilst she gave me head was awesome.

    Nevertheless I am not afraid of getting an erection. Last time I got one and so I should tomorrow. I'm optimistic and I trust in myself.
     
  15. Uncensored

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    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    Day 34

    So I started to get night and morning wood again. The last morning wood was like 1 week ago. I know the reboot isn't linear, so its nice that I got them again. Also I got an erection by just pulling down my pants in bed. Didn't even thought about anything. Just the feeling of my dick being free haha
    I have a suspicion that my mind is kinda unwired from porn and rewired to the real world (maybe not 100%). I feel way different than one month ago. And now my dick gets rewired, I mean I'm getting more sensitive down there. I think my problem with PIED is almost (maybe completely cured?!) but now I think my problem is Delayed ejaculation. Sex doesn't feel so good like expected, maybe because I used a condom..

    I hope I can fix this by not masturbating and not touching my dick. I just got a little improvement with my sensitivity (look above). Hope it gets better...
     
  16. Uncensored

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    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    day 36

    Didn't meet with the girl yet. I'm freaking horny. I would fuck any girl right now, i also contacted a girl who is interested in me but I didn't give her a chance back in the PMO times. Now i would fuck her. I want to fap, because I feel how sensitive my dick got. It would feel awesome but i'll regtet it afterwards although I don't see it as a relapse If i MO without fantasy.. But everytime I resist I'm feeling how i get stronger..
     
  17. Uncensored

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    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    Day 37-39

    I MO'd on sunday (day 37). I never was so horny like that. NEVER in my whole life. I was talking on phone and texted with that girl and I got so horny. I had boners the whole day although I didn't fantasize (I don't fantasize anymore, I can avoid that pretty good right now)
    I was laying in bed and my dick didn't want to shut the fuck up If you understand.. Just one light touch and I got a boner. I resisted the whole day (It was sunday,my friends didn't do anything so I was the whole day at home..) , but then in the evening I couldn't stand that hornyness anymore and I MO'd. I think it was natural libido, no cravings or tricks my brain played. My body had to relieve itself. I used lube (I never wanked without lube) and tried not to stroke my dick so hard. It was the best orgasm ever, like a fucking explosion (literally :D) .. Never had a feeling like that.
    It was a very unfamiliar/unusual feeling. I MO'd for sooo long before the reboot and now it feels unusual?

    The following days until now, no flatline, no bad feelings, no guilty feelings, nothing.. Nothing changed. Maybe because I don't see my action on sunday as a relapse. IMO My body had to be relieved, I never was so freaking horny in my whole life and I think If I didn't MO I would have had a wet dream. The last time I had my wet dream (where I could stop the orgasm by waking up) I was similiar horny that day, but not as extreme as on sunday.

    Yesterday I started to feel my libido raising again. Got spantaneous erections, but no morning wood.


    (I hope you understand my english I have the feeling I make alot of mistakes :D)
     
  18. Uncensored

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    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    Day 40

    Wow I'm already at 40. Nice number looks good :D

    Today I woke up at 5am because I was thirsty as fuck. I woke up and a had a big boner, never had night (or morning?) wood in such a dimension
    I was really tired but also really impressed :D and I had the boner for about 15 minutes and I just wanted to sleep so no sexual thoughts.

    Today on the way to work I realised how easily I can get aroused. I see a nice butt and I already feel how I can get it up if I don't look away.
    Since I rebooted I'm far more with my friends and I would fuck any girl who gives me a chance. I'm texting with a lot of girls… Before the reboot I only had one girl who fell in love with me but I didn't really want her. Although I was on holiday with her and 2 friends.
    A few months later she had a affair with an other guy and I got a bit jealous, because in that time I wanted her but she rejected me and she liked it.
    Like a revenge.

    Today I don't give a fuck about her. I'm not talking to her for 2 months and I bet she thinks I'm still jealous haha but I know, she knows that I fucked her friend. She doesn't like it and I will fuck her other friend too, so she knows what she's missing :)
     
  19. Uncensored

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    Re: Age 18 - Destroying PMO!

    Day 41

    Got morningwood. I get turned on really quickly. I looked TV this morning, saw a woman in a show in jeans and I got an erection by just looking at her legs wtf? Never got aroused so quickly..
    Also I realized I look at girls which I would consider as ugly 41 days ago. My standards are waaaay lower now. I didn't see a naked woman online for 41 days now. I feel like a small boy who gets turned on by just looking at a beautiful women. I think ED isn't a problem anymore because I got a boner yesterday by talking to this girl which I'm going to fuck. She gave me a look which meant ''come on fuck me''.. But this other girl was with her (the girl who rejected me) So I couldn't do anything. Damn she's the definition of a slut. I will fuck her today but I'm afraid of not ejaculating in her. DE is hell, I always thought its good to fuck for hours. I hope I feel more than the last time, my dick is way more sensitive it feels kinda ticklish when I touch him now.

    Do you guys think when I can't ejaculate I should finish by myself? Or she should try to finish me manually? Because the last time I fucked that girl but couldn't finish I was even more horny when I left her house..
     
  20. Uncensored

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    Day 42

    Soo, I fucked that girl tonight and got easily an erection again. Nice! But only about 70-80% strong..
    I want that damn 100%! I also felt more during the sex but couldn't orgasm :(
    She jerked me off and there was a point where I almost O'd because she jerked faster than before and I think I could O with some fantasy but I didn't want to fantasize. Fuck this DE. The positive thing is i felt a bit more than 2 weeks ago. I think I can't ejaculate because I'm not 100% hard. The sex would be way nicer If I'm 100%..

    Why can't I reach 100% ? And is it bad when a girl gives me a handjob (because of DE (not dry HJ))
     

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