Dear Reader. Ive started this yourney on the 5th of december last year. Since then i didnt look at any P. Not once. Also i didnt have any orgasms in this period of time. My morning wood started to come back and around day 80 i had an solid erection every morning. On day 101 i decided to visit a prostitute to test my erection strenght and see if i could perform. This wasnt the case. I got an semi hard erection and came whitin 3 minutes of penetration. I was so dissapointed that i decided to try again that same evening with another lady. With this lady i could archieve an hard erection but again i didnt last long. for about 4 minutes. Since then things went downhill. I didnt look at any porn but i feel like S%$#@. Also my morning wood dissapeared and when i have one it is much weaker then before. also i still cant archieve an erection to touch alone and have zero sex drive. What should i do? Am i doing this wrong? I have reagular thougts and fantasys about sex with real girls, not about any P. When a P clip pops up in my head i quickly think about something else. Also ive met this girl. She is really gorgeous and the most beautyfull woman i ever kissed for sure. But when i did kiss her i didnt feel any arousal at all. This was past the experience with the prostitutes. I really dont know what to do because i really like this girl but dont want to screw things up and i am afraid that i cant perform when im with her. Please help me with your input, it is much appreciated. Anewlife.