Addict123's road

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  1. addict123

    addict123 New Member

    DAY 1
    Been struggling with this for 2 months now. Im 21 years old. Longest Ive gone was 2 weeks. Each time i relapse, ive been trying to implement new blockkers and removing triggers. First to go was the macbook. that was extremely helpful in getting me to stop viewing P on the computer. Today I relapsed again after 1 week and a bit. Unfortunately I PMO'ed using My Iphone safari. I m gonna get rid of this Safari app by putting a restriction code on it and see how that does. I am also beginning my blogging in the hopes that I can get rid of this addiction. Feel like ish right now but hoping to get back on the horse. Ill try to post consistently.
     
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    addict123 New Member

    Now that I think about it, Todays relapse using PMO might have been due to the added stress I felt about Recieving my MCAT scores in the next few days. Ive written the test before and had bombed it and I feel as though my stress level sky rocketed today thinking about getting my MCAT score the second time and it also being terrible. I need to realize that things like that cannot effect me the way they did today. I cant afford to allow stress and worries to lead me to relapsing. Another thing is that I feel like the girls on campus dont help the reboot also. I mean commmmonnnn. Short shorts and tights arnt helping with the friggging NO PMO project here. #frustrated.
     
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    addict123 New Member

    Okay, so the New approach of counting no porn and using masterbation as an emergency is what I think ima go for. If I had just M'ed today instead of PMO'ing, Id be much better off. So from now on, Ima count P days separate from M days. Here we go again......
     
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    DAY 2
    Feeling good today, i can def feel a difference from where I was yesterday mentally and in terms of stress level. I have sucessfully goten rid of my safari app on my iphone so i can only use the gmail and youtube apps. I think that this works better than getting rid of internet all together since I do need it for certain things like email access. I am gonna try to focus of the enemy here, porn, rather than PMO all together. I am gonna tell myself that whenever times get rough and rocky, not to go all the way to PMO but rather, if i HAVE TO, use MO instead. I think putting a schedule with the MO would help avoid making the MO a crutch to lean on too often. I am gonna aim for 1.5 weeks before allowing myself the option of MOing. This would allow me to not go all the way to PMO and not get into the midset of, "screw this, its too hard, ima orgasm, and if ima orgasm, i might as well use P too."

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    addict123 New Member

    DAY 3
    So this morning was a bit rough. I started out the day with some morning wood and that carried on for a few hours. Seeing some beautiful women this morning while still having the woods made it a bit of a bumpy morning but nonetheless, im still going strong. I got my mcat scores back and they were better than expected so thats some relief. I feel like if i focus on P being the enemy here and not M, ill be in good shape. Deleting Safari has been a bit of a pain now since I cant google search things on my phone but, Im starting to think that with my phone browser gone and my macbook gone, Ive significantly decreased my avenues to P. SCREW YOU P, I HATE YOU!!!!!
     

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