Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by Bobo, Oct 5, 2017.
Struggling today pmo really on my case but I will prevail. - Even 2 years later Bobo?
Yes, we or at least me must keep my eye on the positive aspects of what we are doing. This is not something that just goes away easily. However, I am not discouraged I really did not expect it to take 90 or 120 days. You just keep "stick-to-it-ness day by day !
"Nothing external can defeat the internal. The only thing that can break someone down is internal. You've got to make sure your internal belief within yourself can defeat the external"
Conor McGregor (World UFC MMA champion)
Quite a busy week. Dancing gig last Sat nite was a real test for me. Was a unbelievable sexy woman at bar. She wanted to dance with me during that portion of gig --- patrons do that dance with Heather and me. As I passed by the bar during break she grabbed my hand and asked me I'd I gave private kizomba dance lessons. I said no but was really tempted by those long legs and big tits and short skirt. As I walked, away I was fantasizing how she would look naked. Stopped that real fast ! Job at new office gonna be ok. Heather and sex life with her fine. Pussy always available I am a lucky man. Had a Japanese hot tub that seats 4 people put in farm. Heather and I used it last mon nite after they finished and Jamie went to bed well didnt really use it cause it made Heather and I really horny. That warm water and naked female body massaging me and we ended up on bed. Need to work on house down south this week that is if Heather dosent grab me by dick which she will!!
i've been married for over ... she's not that sexual... there were sexless year alright...
We went as far towards breaking up as we could go but miraculously are now making a go of it!! a reall epiphany happened really!!
but now it may be tanking again life - such a long journey. as a general philosophy i believe we get what we put in.
Question: do you ever try to schedule sex? Did you ask her. Was it a case that she wouldn't get wet or... did you do what i did ( a mistake i now think) which was to feel that i only wanna have sex with someone who wants me in that way... funny thing is not i beg for it--- it's awesome-- not frequent enough but WAY BETTER THAN NONE... she is happy with a 5 min screw once a month ... it's a comprimise but at least we do it- and that means a lot. it bonds us
Read my journal in the beginning I think it will answer alot of your questions. As far as relationship now -- no never schedule sex-- its not t a job for me I dont need a plan. While I am considerate of Heathers feelings I also will not put up with nonsense. Heather knows that. If that's the life she wants ( nonsense) it's her right but its not going to be with me. Leaving PMO behind has made me a different man. If you are grateful for crumbs thats all youre going to get.
Words of manly wisdom!
Last nights dancing gig was very challenging for me. " Blonde Bomber " from last week was there with a male date. During patrons dance with hired dancers she danced with me and said "Is she your wife?" I said yes figuring that would stop her. It didn't! She just smiled and said " shes beautiful but maybe you should try something new for a change of pace !" That's about as plain as it gets! While I appreciate the attention by a beautiful woman it pissed me off in a way! Women are so predatory at least in my opinion. Just " blew her off" another" axe grinder."
Interestingly, at farm later after club while we were in hot tub Heather says " bet her nipples aren't as sexy as mine !: WHAT! WHO? Heather just says you know who she wants to fuck you ! Ain't gonna happen Heather by now dancing you should know these people are crazy when they drink. Going to a liquor club to hopefully meet someone. We do it for money otherwise we woulndt be there we would be in tub here fucking! Was hoping she would get the idea! Heather---I feel sorry for her she's apparently very unhappy especially with her sex life or her lover. You unhappy Heather or you think your sex life could be better ? I hoped not.
For some reason fantasy bugging me today. I go to new office next Monday so at least that crap is over. A few diehard " so do the least I can and still get paid " types there. They already " shitting' because I am taking over. They dont know what " shitting" is yet--- thats one bullshit scene I will not tolerate. I don't expect more just do your job.
Heather's daughter started school today up north.
Really " randy" today probably why fantasy is bugging me.
Yes, there are many predatory women out there, just as many as males. They don't care whose life they destroy. For men like us these women are the plague.
Sounds like being up north is working out...sweet!
Yes, thank you Saville! I think I agree with you. As many predators in women as there are predators in men. Yes indeed deadly to men like us.
Unfortunately, dancing full of them. I think men like us were attracted to them because of the NMMRNG tendencies we had! Not as you get better !
What do you think?
Spending more time at farm.
Jamie wants to know why she cant live at farm? Also wants to know why I dont marry her mama then she can have a baby brother or sister and we can all live at farm! OOPS!!!! Heather swears she is not pumping Jamie! Though she giggled and said hmm-- is a good question! Damm women! I dont know how to answer this have to think? I tried to do the typical male thing and put it on Heather and she says " nope she asked you dude so you have to answer her!" she pulled my face between her boobs kissed my forehead and walked off laughing !
Heather wants to know if she can use the Japanese hot tub every nite ? Asked her what's in it for me ? Said to me " you can sit on edge of tub and " I will give you a blow job !"! Every nite? Yup every nite !What a damm woman ! I am a lucky man I may fool around but I know it believe me ! Now Jamie !
Asked Heather out for lunch today since I was at new office getting ready to move. She was very goofy! I asked why? She said " you pay so much attention to me youre so different than other men it makes me love you and makes me so hot baby !" I dont and Iam not----that is the result of no pmo. You now have the energy and you're mindset is very different. Instead of you and your problems you think of things differently you have time for others and the women in your life see it and respond. Her daughter Jamie loves me that dosent hurt that's for sure. In tub the other night she whispered in my ear " If you get me pregnant my boobs will get huge and you know you like that baby!" Then she giggled! Nope ain't gonna happen Heather here sit on this ! Then she cursed me out and gave me a kiss that was smoking hot ! Hahaha!
When I think how miserable I was with pmo I am truly amazed how real life and sex is!
You better get snipped bro
Ah-- what's that? Dont khow what it is.
A few years ago I saw a guy my age in Costco, with his hot young wife and a baby strapped to his chest. Do you know what I saw on his face? MISERY!!
The question of marriage/living together isn't going away. You could always ask her how she'd like to be married to an 80 year old when she's only in her 50's. I'm sure you'll still be hot as hell then, though.
Thx for your ideas Saville and WB. I have had a serious talk with Heather about this. NO MARRIAGE, NO LIVING TOGETHGER, MOST DEFINITELY NO BABIES !!!! Ok so she understands! Right do you think I believe that?--NOPE!!! She understands but her hormones and her female nature will and do take over. Even though bigger tits with pregnancy interest me aint gonna happen! Hahahaha ! Told her " you get pregnant your on your own I dont know you ! ?Hahaha! She cursed me out and beat the shit outta me with a pillow! Started to cry and said you are gonna leave me if that happens! Yup! After you give me a bj! Holy shit ! Took my life in my hands!
Ate her age she's programmed to nest and mate. That's not going away....ever! You need to start fucking hot pornstar grannies like me!
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