A serious attempt

Discussion in 'Erectile Dysfunction / Delayed Ejaculation' started by shattered, Feb 12, 2017.

  1. shattered

    shattered Member

    MO'ed 8/30
     
    Last edited: Aug 30, 2017
  2. Superunknown

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    youll eventually get the PMO under control. Alot of us did. Keep it up.
     
  3. shattered

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    Update: I was in a situation where I really didn't care if I could get it up or not, and I performed fine in an oral sex situation. I had also drank a lot, so the ability to keep a nice erection was a nice feeling.

    I gave up alcohol completely for 10 days. My MO habit is definitely decreasing, but I still believe I need to do a no PMO for 3-6 months. I usually MO once every 10 days.
     
  4. shattered

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    Nov 18, morning MO.
    Notice that I am doing this after I consume more than a nominal amount of alcohol the previous evening, so I'm going to work on that angle.
     
    Last edited: Nov 18, 2017
  5. shattered

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    Alright, had a couple weeks with no alcohol and no MO.
    I hope today marks a point where I'm motivated enough to get this under control.
    Goals: cease MO completely and limit alcohol to 1 drink in a social setting.
     
  6. shattered

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    My only update, is I was able to get a nice erection with a woman while under the influence of alcohol. This inspires me to reduce drinking, and gives me some hope. I will point out that I usually don't "feel" any libido, but in the presence of a woman and relaxed, it seems something magical happens.
     
  7. shattered

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    Just a little reflection:
    Don't rule out spiritual causes of ED. If at a deep level, you're not comfortable with who you are, that can manifest itself in ED problems with others. Of course dealing with this is so difficult, one may be tempted to go on a wild goose chasing other explanations.

    I say this because I think I've got my ED problems somewhat figured out, but I've gone into depression and daily drinking recently.

    Trying to pick myself up again.
     
  8. shattered

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    Was off of alcohol and MO for 5 days and was feeling great. I had an event where I felt like I needed to drink with the rest of the guys. Let my guard down and MO'ed. I'm not that upset about it though because, I sorted of planned it.

    Turning towards 2018, I'm excited. Finally, I need to find out once and for all what an extended period of no MO will do for me.

    I strongly suspect that the MO habit is at the core of so many of my problems. It goes beyond ED.

    My hope is I can rid of myself of this habit, radically improve the quality of my life, and perhaps write a book about it if it works.

    I will try to write reflections on this as I go. I'm 100% committed to no MO for 6 months. That may mean a few nights of no sleep, but I'm prepared for that.
     
  9. shattered

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    My excitement in the previous post was dashed on the 3rd day of the year when I Mo'ed.

    I've been doing a lot of reflecting on my early life. I remember when I was 16, there was this attractive kind of slutty girl I liked. I was the typical nice guy, thinking if I just buy her this, or take her to her favorite place, she might come to like me. I did that for 9 months and of course it went nowhere. But it's interesting that I didn't make a single sexual advance during that 9 months. What this means is even in my earliest memories, my MO habit must have had something do with this. Because every night I returned home, I would immediately MO dreaming about the girl. To add salt to the wound, she did it with some other guy who never bought her a thing or did anything for her.

    Somehow deep down, I feel I got on the wrong track with the MO fantasy habit. That's probably an understatement. Somehow deep down, I developed a debilitating habit.
     
  10. shattered

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    I had a serious battle last night. Just so everyone knows. My ED problems started before ever watching porn.
    I used to MO to women in underwear catalogs.

    Last night, I was depressed because I realized that I haven't had a normal sex life, and that this has also caused problems in my marriage. So even though I don't have the habit of watching porn anymore (maybe once in the last year), I was severely tempted just to PMO all night last night - I didn't. Somehow I went to sleep with these demons chasing me.

    But then I remembered another post that I responded to, and I realize I owe it to myself at any cost to avoid MO for 6 months.

    So that is my highest priority for the next 6 months. I'm also reducing alcohol, exercising, and doing other self-improvement things, but the I'm basically betting everything on no PMO for 6 months.
     
  11. shattered

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    Well, giving up MO isn't going all that well. I guess I'm going to just have to come to terms that kicking this habit may mean nights of zero sleep.
     
    Last edited: Mar 27, 2018
  12. shattered

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    Made it 19 days and MO’ed to alleviate a hangover.

    Lesson learned!
     
  13. shattered

    shattered Member

    Some reflections on quitting MO for when you're discouraged:

    1) remember past successes. - They are few and far between, but I've had sex without pills before.
    2) remember any good that came out of an ED problem (i.e. I didn't get my first gf pregnant and would have had a miserable life if I had done so!)
    3) Use the problem to create more good things in your life. Right now I'm focusing on my fitness and a certain skill.
    4) Pills do exist, so you can't really use ED as an excuse not to be intimate.
    5) For me, I have been a heavy drinker for 20 years, and I know this underlying ED problem is the cause. Acknowledge these things, and then get motivated to make changes.

    I was doing great for 19 days, then I drank too much, and used MO to alleviate the pain of a hangover. Learn from falls, and move on.
     
  14. shattered

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    Wow, 24 days of no MO. I do feel I've broken out of that cycle.
    I have still been drinking to much, so today I'm committing myself to stopping alcohol for 100 days.
     
  15. shattered

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    Well, I've done very well with the no MO, but my libido is nonexistent. I've also gotten seriously depressed because I still have a suspicion that maybe Accutane caused these problems. I wish I could be 100% sure my problems were due to masturbation addiction. I will stay the course for a few more months regardless.
     
  16. shattered

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    Got a hang over. I haven't watched porn in over 6 months, but did this morning.
     
  17. shattered

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    Ok, every relapse I've had into my MO addiction has involved alcohol, so I have no choice but to not drink for an extended period of time. Usually, when I give up drinking, there is always some business event or even a pretty girl that wants to drink with me, so I fold on it. Goal is 100 days of no alcohol or MO.
     

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