All these years I have been afraid to be honest with myself and others, I finally realized that the truth always prevails. No matter how deceptive a person is, the truth eventually comes to light. I'm a man in his thirties with almost no sexual experience with women. Women might as well be from another planet because when it comes to romance I have no idea how to communicate with them. Growing up in America, a mans value seems to be tide to his success with women, something I failed at. This made believe that I was a failure for a good part of my youth. I made attempts at finding a women but every time rejection would be lying in wait. Porn took over at a time in my life that I had no direction or guidance. No one to talk to, no one to understand. I realize the world does not owe men understanding. A women's purpose is to select the best man she can find too carry on her genes. Women are very cold and selective when it comes to finding a mate. I as a man seem to never cut it. I don't blame them, as I believe no one should settle. The only girl I truly loved and pursued a relationship with made me realize this. She told me that she wanted a relationship, just not with me. She only wanted to sleep with me, nothing more. It was very cold but I appreciated her honesty. We went our separate ways. I realize that the path to dating for me will be a struggle, I have accepted this. What I cant accept is porn being part of my life. I cannot justify fantasizing about people I will never meet. I've even stopped looking at attractive women in public. I only want to cultivate interactions based off other things, things other then how sexually attractive I find a lady. Women can posses a power over men. But a man can take back control over his desire with some effort and resolve. I believe most things in life start in the mind, a good mindset elevates a persons life. While a bad mindset devastates.