Still sorely tempted to indulge in a particular F, so here's a responsive entry: Yes, I know exactly what F I would rehash for some momentary gratification. But I won't go there, and here's why: Lie: The fantasy is a lot more innocent than some of the smut I could be looking at. This is a good one one to go with. Truth: Sure, it starts that way, but I know it doesn't end that way. It ends with degrading and offensive thoughts. Do I want to be a pervert? How would I feel to be publicly known as a pervert? This F is a one-way ticket to a thought life which is totally on that level. There's NOTHING good about living subject to fantasy thoughts. It poisons my relationship and performance with my wife as well. Lie: It's been ages, a quick indulgence wouldn't be so bad. This fantasy is powerful and will be effective quickly. Truth: Yes! Ages! AWESOME! That has been the goal the whole time! Let this be just the beginning of living free of those thoughts. Also, it's not a quick indulgence. From experience, It would take the better part of an hour if I go there. Then the chaser, further temptation to wallow in it because "Oh well, I've blown it anyway..." Further time spent exploring that and other F, then it would escalate to looking at old sources of smut. The rest of the week would be a write-off. I'd feel lousy and have to rebuild everything after the weekend. Not quick and not worth it! It WOULD be "so bad". This fantasy IS powerful - to keep me enslaved to patterns which are destructive and which I'm working hard to overthrow! It IS effective - to pull hours out of productivity. Look at the ground I've taken this week - much better than wasting my life on F. Lie: You're missing out if you don't. This is treasure that you're disregarding. Truth: I'm missing out if I DO go along with the F. I can see that with my own eyes physically. But also spiritually. I understand that God doesn't ever ask me to sacrifice something unless it's for the sake of something GREATER. Who knows what I will be sacrificing spiritually if I go along with the F? And imagine the spiritual reward greater than the "best" sexual session? What could that be like? I'm going to find out. F is not treasure, it's poison which I'm disregarding. So be it!