A new beginning

my mums not been too healthy since the new year, though thankfully she is on the mend. my brother s have hardly called her and i feel ashamed to call them brothers really. the make fun of her both in front of her and behind her back and generally look down their noses at her. it is sad to say my brothers are shameful. when my mother passes away i will have nothing to do with them. they really do repulse me.

i do not understand how we can be possibly from the same mother and father.

just wanted to get this out, excuse my self-indulgence.

 

unfortunately CP that is a common occurrence. your conscience is clear.

 

You can only control your own actions CP. Live your life the way that you want to.

 

Live your life the way that you want to.

chicken, indeed this is sound advice. i aim to resolve each day i will not MO and PMO. last time i feel my (infrequent) Moing was the start of bargaining that ended in pro, after over 100 days. this time, no bargains. these little scenarios play games in our heads, they get less frequent with time and life gets better. i have seen it and i will not compromise this time.

nofapado i am offloading shit i carry around with me, things either i am too embarrassed to talk about or no one wants to hear.

picked a friend up who was returning to the uk up yesterday. the traffic was terrible and i'll admit a bit of road rage, it is another aspect i want to leave behind. we get taken in by the rush. thankfully driving to his house i took it slowly and it was such a more enjoyable journey because of that. there are lessons to be learnt everyday. basic ones but good ones.

house a mess, need a good tidy, this house buying hovering is a little frustrating, but it is only time. meeting a friend who is thinking of recoding my websites in return for a painting. i could do it myself but just haven't the time. we will see.

day 8 and all ok.

 

And 'Shame' too of course - that was a great depiction of sex addiction with no sensationalism,

I'm right here mate - let's make 2014 THE year.

 

just re reading this, most have you will have seen it, but if it helps 1 more person it has done its job.
i sped read it first time around, i will spend time absorbing the information it provides.

opening channels. positive. creating.

 

Congrats on getting back at this thing...it's hard when you fall off.

 

Hey CP, you have a solid week under your belt again. Good job my friend.

 

Keep it going, CP. The brotherhood is strong and your numbers are reflecting that.

I'll have to check out those films.

Have to catch up on my "Sherlock" too. That show's a good use of attention that once went elsewhere.... Heck, anything's a better alternative.

 

Congrats on 8 days… 8 is a sideways infinity symbol, a good sign I think.

 

Hey Col, Im a socialist too. And like you I know very well why. Socialism is about compassion. about sharing and having a positive attitude to your fellow man.
I dont think you are ranting. We have to confront the crap in our lifes, we cant charm our way thru it. To move towards positivity we have to address the reasons for our negativity first.

Keep ploughing along. I sense a new grunt in your stance.

 

CP, in one post you mention having "a bit of road rage", in another that "I am learning to live in the now". Learning to live in the now may help with the road rage...

 

thank you xstar, chicken asg

will do bob, you too bro

glad to hear inout

asg road rage is unnecessary, we are caught up in a moment of competition. it does us no good to show anger. we should move serenely on or way. this is shall try to accomplish.

another day. the house buying drags on, I'm going to have to inject some pace today talk with our solicitor and the owners we are buying from. hopefully the outstanding issues can be resolved with me doing some running around.

hope all is peaceful with you out there.

 

The discussion about road rage is interesting to me. For several years I noticed that my road rage, and inability to handle it, was noticeably worse the day of, and the day following a session of PMO. It was the first indicator to me that something was wrong and that I had a problem (PMO). I've since learned that PMO impedes my ability to handle stress and interact with others in general. It's a terrible habit/affliction/whatever one wants to call it.

Hope you have a great day, too.

 

colimpool,

Best of luck with the house purchase. Buying a house can be stressful because it's such a "big" move and a mixture of excitement and "pain-in-the-ass". Stay strong under the stress brother.

 

it all got a bit stressful today, too many questions and not enough answers.

edged a little with it all this morning but thankfully didn't get far before shutting my computer off. i hadn't realised just how stressful it gets.

i am of the opinion you buy a house at what YOU think its worth. taking in issues which could lay ahead and in some ways could be costly but sometimes will turn out not to be a problem at all. you set your price. in reality we are getting a lot of house for our money, in an area we would like to be in, to me the minuti of detail gets in the way of the bigger grander picture.

there will be discussions tonight when my wife gets home and i'll probably get an earful. I'm not looking forward to it really.

just wanted to say I'm hanging on in there.

 

CP buying and selling a house are major stressful events in life. this too shall pass. try to take some time to relax. maybe go for a walk. it will work out one way or the other. but you know everything will work out.

 

This is why I have a P and M counter. I am not addicted to PMO. I am addicted to P and I am to a lesser degree addicted to M. The PMO counter here at YBR is next door to useless.

 

We've all used MO to deal with stress but you know that there are other options. Better and healthier options. What would be your easiest alternative? Going for a walk? a run? Calling a friend to talk? If you are feeling stressed either stay away from your computer or perhaps come to the Forum and write out what is going on in your head.

 

CP, I think it's a great measure of your progress that you st.opped yourself. That's money in the bank. I look forward to celebrating your 10th tomorrow.

I know how stressful real estate is, especially for one more oriented to the arts than finance (and I'm talking about myself!). It'll be worth it. Sounds like a good deal if it's where you want to be. Location, location and something else .

PMO for me could be triggered by feeling really stressed, feeling really good, or feeling nothing. And it didn't help any of those situations. Same crap, but worse, once you break away from the fix.