I think I know the feeling you’re talking about. Sometimes, I get a feeling of emptiness, of absurdity. Somewhat similar to some of the things Camus wrote about, existentialism and all that. I didn’t expect that, but rebooting has turned out to be a journey about finding and giving a meaning to my life. Once we realize that living basically means making choices, there’s no going back, we have to make choices, to choose what we want for ourselves. Easier said than done. Personally, I feel much better when I have meaningful projects to work on, and when I feel I’m improving as a person in different areas (taking care of myself in a better way, overcoming my fears, developing new skills, etc.). Connecting with people has made a big difference in my life too. I used to be shy, uncomfortable around people. I still am, but not as much as before, and I try to overcome that instead of avoiding social situations. It’s such a slow process… But we can change, it really is possible. You realize a thing or two about yourself and about life, you change some of your perceptions and behaviors, and then new things come up. Learning Spanish sounds like a good plan to me! Whatever you’re interested in, do it. Things can only get better that way.