Hey Luke, you cannot believe how sad am I to read about your relapse. Especially because you say that today was rather a good and productive day. How many days were you in? I haven't read all your posts except the first one yet, however, I know exactly how you feel. I'm dealing with social anxiety either, with the only difference that mine is probably severe. Nonetheless, I am convinced that this is the issue. Intimacy is a social thing. What we do when PMO is not social at all. We just unlearned how to deal with sexual pressure. I remember when I was young and sexually aroused I would talk to friends or just go chill or do some sports with them. I would be still aroused, however directing it into another direction. It's about to connect to people, doesn't need to be female. At least I have tremendous issues with that and trusting people. Is it the same for you?