A new beginning,.....again, and again...

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by o2bfree, Feb 23, 2019.

  1. o2bfree

    o2bfree New Member

    Hello, trying another crack at this recovery "thing ". Was last on this forum, probably 4-5 years ago(?) - different psuedonymn(?):(, same old bullsh_t. Only difference now, I am older and obviously not much wiser.
    Like many on this forum I began this problematic journey when I was a young lad, quite naive and innocently drawn into it's beguiling promises. And year after year I continued my downwards spiral into the belly of the beast as it were. Till one day I realized that I was indeed a " kept " man, with no where to turn, escape the hell I had created for myself (and of course with a little bit(lot) of help from my porn pixel friends) .
    So- this is where I find myself today, 2 days past acting out for the millionth time(?) and wishing that I could turn the clock back from those many years ago when I first let my guard down-to take that first glimpse ,that first peek at the naked image in my sights....
     
  2. Bobo

    Bobo Well-Known Member

    Welcome aboard----it can be done and you can find many willing to help here. Read journals much info here.
     
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  3. o2bfree

    o2bfree New Member

    thx for the welcome Bobo.I certainly intend to avail myself of wealth of info here and on YBOP.
     
  4. o2bfree

    o2bfree New Member

    Well starting on on day 3.Have managed to steer away of pa related media. I think I'm still po'd w/myself, so have not began that familiar relapse cycle yet-we're all so familiar with. I really want to make a go of it-so I'll have to be vigilant and watch out for the signs and take corrective measures, sooner than later....will have to review boundaries I set, long ago trampled down .Without clear set boundaries I haven't a chance in he..ll of going forward ?..time to move on.
     
  5. -Luke-

    -Luke- Active Member

    Welcome back. Lots of people who were active here 4-5 years ago and came back (myself included) because of the same old problem. Stay strong.
     
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  6. o2bfree

    o2bfree New Member

    Into day 4.feeling pretty bland.no desire to seek pa fix, at least at this point.still early,know the worst is yet to come.been looking at some posts and doing a lot of self analysis...soon day will end and I can start all over again
     
  7. Saville

    Saville Well-Known Member

    Hey, bro'. Be as active here as you can. 4 days in is great!
     
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  8. Boxer17

    Boxer17 Active Member

    Hey there @o2bfree
    You can do this! As Saville said be active here as you turn this ship around
     
  9. Climber

    Climber Member

    Welcome back. 5 days is a 500% improvement over 1 day. You and I can't turn the clock back -- I wish I could too. Heck, we can't even stop it from ticking. But I can make a plan on how to schedule my day tomorrow to best avoid PM, and I can lean gently forward into Victory, rather than lean back in regret.
     
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  10. Bobo

    Bobo Well-Known Member

    Keep up the good work, you are trucking along.
     
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