We are allowed to feel down, TT. We are allowed to feel shame and we are allowed whine. Living a modern life, where we don't have to eke out a living in the forest has made us all confused. You know that I think the way forward is always with a action. A walk each day, some exercise, a bit of this and a bit of that. You went to a meeting a few months ago, I forget what it was for, but perhaps that might be something to try again. Going out to the bar drinking doesn't seem to work for you; I know it doesn't work for me. Alcohol keeps people like us stuck. Don't think too much. The way forward is, well, forward.