I had a friend in the past who was, like me, involved in the sort of things people involved in this forum are glad to have left or are leaving behind. I remember him remarking to me that it felt to him that he was unable to conceive of a type of sexual activity that if he unexpectedly come across it and was confronted by it, which would truly shock him. Thinking back on this remark, I think it confirms that I’ve lost something along the way. It’s not that I wish to begin acting prudish or have a desire to become easily shocked by sex or nudity like some old maid. But I really have lost something through years and years of using pornography and lost it so completely that I hardly know any more what I've lost. Of course intellectually I know what has been lost (e.g. sensitivity to less explicit and gross pleasures) but emotionally, physically and spiritually, these impressions and pleasures are no longer discernible to me. Looking over the journals of some of the lads at this website, it seems that there are good times ahead for those who leave this filth behind. But at this point in the journey what gives me the greatest pleasure is all the time I have for more worthwhile activities. If and when I get further along the road, I hope that my mind is not quite so much the sewer pipe that it has been in the past. Good luck and best wishes to one and all.